In ten minutes mom is gonna wake me up at six thirty, I just read a few of my posts from my livejournal thingy and of course, I messed up again, I know nothing about the religion that I was took an entire summer to read about, all of those different books that help me realize to myself that there had to be a god, and it wasn't the books that did it, oh no, it was the nature that surrounded me and kept me at peace, and there I went, stating my opinions that aren't based on facts, god forbid! *sigh* Oh well, at least I have my blog here to keep me company... ::hugglez::



which reminds me, fear time: I have a fear that Carson sees me as Sara. He mentions her in every conversation we have now, and he likes to pick on her, and whenever I mention it I sound selfish and bratty, like a little kid..I think I'll stay outside today, they won't care, they could live their entire lives without me now, yes, I will stay outside and avoid all of them because they won't care, and I'll go back to being alone again because it's probably the thing that will create the least harm for my heart and just me.