Hmm

Taken From Carson's LJ:

"It was earlier this morning. I was sitting with the "usual bunch" of myself, Tory, Sara, Dan, Ben, Jennifer, etc. My mind is wandering; I'm surprisingly awake for once. And then Tory snuggles up next to me. I hold her, and then my mind just suddenly goes into realization mode. How odd is this, a person, a living being, putting their entire trust in a single entity. And that entity is myself. It's very odd, just having this bundled mass of warmth curl up beside you; I don't know exactly what word to use. It's very curious, very enjoyable, and very strange. Very very strange. But I'm not complaining. "


Funny thing is, I'm the one who used to not trust anyone or anything, I don't know if it came with the caring and worrying over him, but I do know this, I still care and I still love him. I know that before I've questioned whether you call it love or lust or just some odd emotion, but now I'm beginning to realize that I do actually care for him, and that I do actually love him, now if only he were here for me to tell him that, oh well I'll tell it to that empty bleak space: I love Carson True.