Hello, good ol' bloggie, I guess I better get on the ball with my work, but first I would like to say how I like Carson, not love, I'm taking it down a notch. we're slowly drifting, which is fine, because we need someone else, I can't ever get to know him, I won't end it now, but slowly and surely it'll end by next school year, I can tell you that. There are other guys out there, and also i went too far with Carson, so I'll never do that again, no we didn't ever have sex, don't worry, I believe in abstinence and I'm sticking with it, but we have gotten in some erm "odd positions" well, yes kinda like that, just some odd hugs, anyway, I have a problem with how ugly I am, of course I have insecurities, don't we all? I hate myself secretly. I do, so bad at everything..ack oh well, deep down I'm a perfectionist, and I like to point out all my impurities, oh well, I think that far away I'm pretty, but up close if you look hard enough, I'm ugly as all get out. Hmm, illusions eh? I also feel like I need a change with this life, but what? I don't know, but I will change it, I can tell you that. Okay, I best get to work on my old homework, Buh bye world!