Ah, I just took a hot shower, Diana Krall is playing, the lights are dim, but enough for me to finish "Of Mice And Men", now all I need is Carson here..I'm tired, I'm just going to either read or go to my cozy bed soon..

I love you world, thanks for the fun time, goodnite.

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly
motivated. Sharp
thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves
attention. Deep
feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm
Standpoint. Needs no
motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left
brain). Loves to dream. Strong
clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in
the ear and neck. Good
imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves
literature and the arts.
Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless.
Not having many children.
Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift


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I really really gotta stop..

And the boredom ensues...:

Found this under my door:

Tory, I HATE YOU!!!


funny thing was, miranda signed it like this in small letters at the bottom:
"love miranda"


...lol, stupid lil girl...hehe

What I have discovered about myself today: I can make one helluva iced coffee drink..

What I knew about myself: I'm lazy and I have French finals I oughta study for at this very moment..

What I'm about to do: IM Carson again..

Why?: Hellifiknow

You're a dumb bitch: Thanks.

Okay, end of questionnaire really: Okay.

*Mutterdumbbitchmutter*: ::leaves::

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Which member of the Fab Five are you? Ted Allen, Food and Wine Connoisseur It's your mission to bring some style and class to the kitchens of straight America, by giving men the tools to make a fabulous meal (or at least boil water without killing anyone). Your message is simple: Enjoy food. Also, life is too short for cheap booze.

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Are you cool or do you suck? Ice You're the coolest. You're so cool you could freeze a person from across the room.

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What type of dream are ya? You're a PROPHETIC DREAM Prophetic dreams, also referred to as precognitive dreams, are dreams that seemingly foretells the future. One rational theory to explain this phenomenon is that our dreaming mind is able to piece together bits of information and observation that we normally overlook or that we do not seriously con

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What do I think you should do? Send Me A Letter. It's obvious I like you.

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What religion should you belong to? Atheism You are just too pathetic and depressed to commit to major religion. Sorry.

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Which poem are you? Sonnet 17 by Pablo Neruda Aw, you're a romantic. You believe in true love and all that sort of stuff. How cute are you? To you, love is incredible and amazing.

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What Score Will You Get On The SAT? 1600 A perfect score! You are incredibly astute and ingenious. Keep up the good work and your future should be very bright.

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And I end it on a high note with that, man, I'm tired, I saw "Dr. Chivago" or w/e with my mom, ah the romance of russian revolution, fun times, fun times, I got a "40" on my alg. 2 test so I'm not gonna be at the high 2morrow in the morning, sorry world! :( I love you guys! I'm pooped! 'nite!

still awake... damn insomnia :p

You should be dating a Libra. 23 September - 22 October This mate is artistic, refined, loving and romantic. Though the balance of Libra can display manipulative, overbearing and indolent traits, this mate is sure to be a passionate addition to your bed.

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You have a free soul! As all the souls go, yours is
the most free-spirited and adventurous. You
like camping, hiking, or interaction with other
people. Your a social butterfly, but not
because of your style, but because of your
willingness to communicate with everyone. You
probably have close friends who can rely on you
because you always seem to know whats going on
in the world. You love music and are
free-spirited and someone fun to be around. A
born leader and great explorer-dont ever
change-the world needs more people like you.


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You belong on a lazy-day beach or anywhere where
you can set up a relaxing bench or chair and
watch the world go by. You don't want to make
any changes, watching is enough to make you
content. The blue of the sky and the light of
day beat into your soul and you drift into the
world and around without harming anything or
making any ripples in the fabric of humanity.
Enjoy your peace, few have it, though few would
want it at the cost.


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I'm going, goodnite world.

Maybe

You know actually come to think of it, maybe it isn't love. Maybe he's just an outlet, maybe I won't care later in life, maybe he's totally the wrong guy for me and I still don't see it, maybe he deep down doesn't love me, maybe..who knows..maybe I shouldn't say love, that way when it ends it won't hurt as much..but then that ruins it for now, do I love him? No, I hardly know what love is..how could I be in it if I don't know? How do I know I'm not in it? The eternal question: what is love? My parents claim they love each other, yet there are points when they both hate each other, and they both argue with each other every day, but there are also points where they kiss and makeup, what if love is just a feeling? And you could get that feeling from anyone? Do I really love him? Maybe you should shut up bitch and stop ruining the grand mood..maybe..

Hmm

Taken From Carson's LJ:

"It was earlier this morning. I was sitting with the "usual bunch" of myself, Tory, Sara, Dan, Ben, Jennifer, etc. My mind is wandering; I'm surprisingly awake for once. And then Tory snuggles up next to me. I hold her, and then my mind just suddenly goes into realization mode. How odd is this, a person, a living being, putting their entire trust in a single entity. And that entity is myself. It's very odd, just having this bundled mass of warmth curl up beside you; I don't know exactly what word to use. It's very curious, very enjoyable, and very strange. Very very strange. But I'm not complaining. "


Funny thing is, I'm the one who used to not trust anyone or anything, I don't know if it came with the caring and worrying over him, but I do know this, I still care and I still love him. I know that before I've questioned whether you call it love or lust or just some odd emotion, but now I'm beginning to realize that I do actually care for him, and that I do actually love him, now if only he were here for me to tell him that, oh well I'll tell it to that empty bleak space: I love Carson True.

Fun chats with a person

Capra Sesso Uomo (8_37_01): Hola, Tory.
T15WIT (8_37_35): Well, I think it's safe to say that no one actually has a fucking clue about a higher being or anything to that.
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_37_47): Well, obviously.
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_37_55): But that's what bugs me. Too many people claim to know.
T15WIT (8_38_06): I'm sorry if I ever did
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_38_26): Nah, don't apologize.
T15WIT (8_38_46): I know I probably have, I have no problem with a person claiming their opinions, but when they tell someone else that they're wrong is what gets me
T15WIT (8_38_56): because they just might be right, who knows
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_39_09): Yeah, I get like that, too.
T15WIT (8_39_25): and you know that when I say " a god" I don't exactly mean one god
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_39_31): A = One
T15WIT (8_39_33): I don't mean an army of angels either
T15WIT (8_39_36): yeah I know
T15WIT (8_39_45): I don't mean one singular god in one spot though
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_39_45): A turtles...doesn't work :p
T15WIT (8_39_58): Quiet :p, *damn logic*
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_40_04): Heh
T15WIT (8_40_09): I mean, there's one god, or one force
T15WIT (8_40_30): not a bunch like polytheo w/e that word is
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_40_57): Polytheisms?
T15WIT (8_41_00): I dunno, I just think there has to be a reason why we're here..and I'll shut up now
T15WIT (8_41_04): yeah, that might be it
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_41_25): Yes, but to claim to accept that a singular entity is the cause is just going down the same path.
T15WIT (8_41_40): Not one singular entity
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_41_55): Then what?
T15WIT (8_41_56): it might be a multitude of things, but it's all under one general subject
T15WIT (8_42_33): Like, there are many things that are "good" but they can all be considered different, but they all are under one category
T15WIT (8_44_00): and your laughing non stop
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_44_05): Nah
T15WIT (8_44_18): maybe I should study something more and look at it more before I go spouting shit off,
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_44_19): I look at it from the opposite view
T15WIT (8_44_31): okay
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_44_33): Not everything is all one thing, but one thing is everything
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_44_50): You can build a tower with bricks, but not vice-versa, in other words.
T15WIT (8_45_07): I see
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_45_19): But then again, at some point logic is created, so before that nothing can be learned, for any idea can obviously be defeated.
T15WIT (8_45_22): I don't know though
T15WIT (8_45_40): yeah
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_45_53): So there is no eternal answer, and unless we somehow defeat everything of which we are a part of, there is no way we can uncover the universal truth.
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_46_12): So, if we remove ourselves from the picture, we can learn what we are. Impossible, though.
T15WIT (8_46_21): How is it impossible?
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_46_28): Sorta like whats-it-called theory (the one concerning atoms and viewing them...)
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_46_41): Well, Tory, if you don't exist, how do you plan to view something?
T15WIT (8_46_42): Go on *starts a grin*
T15WIT (8_47_15): If I don't exist then what am I right now?
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_47_23): I didn't say you don't exist.
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_47_25): I said,
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_47_36): To understand what we are, we must overcome what we are.
T15WIT (8_47_50): Yes I see
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_47_53): Remember Flatterland? To understand the concept of Flatland, one had to overcome Flatland.
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_47_57): Yeah, there we go.
T15WIT (8_47_59): and there's no way we can do that
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_48_03): Exactly.
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_48_09): Because it defeats what we are.
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_48_23): And if we could observe what makes the universe, then what would we be made of?
T15WIT (8_48_41): But still, wasn't there a way that Victoria Line finally observed even if she did over come what she was, she still suceeded in it
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_49_04): Yes, but that was a partial example - she had a limit to what she was learning
T15WIT (8_49_09): Of course, she had a higher being enlighten her and give her a suit but still
T15WIT (8_49_22): She did?
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_49_34): Yes. But the goal here is to find the highest level of high, and then go higher. Nothing from you :p
T15WIT (8_49_41): Hehe
T15WIT (8_49_52): What if it was infinite?
T15WIT (8_49_59): There was no highest then
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_50_06): As far as we're concerned, it is infinite
T15WIT (8_50_23): And what if it isn't?
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_50_48): Then it's not the highest level.
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_50_54): You can always go higher.
T15WIT (8_51_09): I'm beginning to agree with you on that..
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_51_22): And when you can't, you simple go up another direction, and include the tower.
T15WIT (8_51_26): like in Sunday school, whenever we got to the tower of babel story..always hated it
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_51_31): Heh
T15WIT (8_51_50): When they say that god was the one that stopped them from making the tower
T15WIT (8_52_03): and btw, they had to be the best architects around but anyway
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_52_08): Heh
T15WIT (8_52_18): I never did understand that
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_52_26): Because it isn't true.
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_52_32): Isn't it obvious?
T15WIT (8_52_46): I remember in 3rd grade we had an astronaut come to us and I remember asking what he thought was outside space
T15WIT (8_53_02): his reply was one that also got me caught onto physics, "time"
T15WIT (8_53_11): Which in a way I could understand
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_53_19): Right. As if time was a concept of matter.
T15WIT (8_53_21): When I say outside space
T15WIT (8_53_24): heh, I know
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_53_33): "I just bought some extra time..."
T15WIT (8_53_34): I don't listen to that theory now
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_53_35): Erm, nevermind
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_53_39): I gotcha
T15WIT (8_53_47): but it did help me get interested in the concepts
T15WIT (8_53_48): yeah
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_54_02): You deal with this world's physics, I'll handle the stuff that doesn't exist, k?
T15WIT (8_54_15): Heh, okay
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_54_21): In other word, "homelessness"
T15WIT (8_54_26): *reads on about the new electron accelerator*
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_54_29): Heh
T15WIT (8_54_30): What? :-(
T15WIT (8_54_35): Nothing to do with Fermi lab?
T15WIT (8_54_37): :I
Capra Sesso Uomo (8_54_41): Erm...
T15WIT (8_54_52): Hehe

Ack.

Ub3rb00n7331 [2:25 PM]: How old are you?
T15WIT [2:25 PM]: I'm either younger or older than you.
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:26 PM]: Ok so your a faggot.
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:26 PM]: k bye.
T15WIT [2:26 PM]: I thought that was only used on guys..
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:26 PM]: Your a chick?
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:26 PM]: You got big boobs?
T15WIT [2:26 PM]: If ya wanted to be correct in insulting moi, ya should say "lessie"
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:26 PM]: You do Java?
T15WIT [2:26 PM]: Heh, if you want to think me as that
T15WIT [2:26 PM]: sure, why not
T15WIT [2:27 PM]: yes
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:27 PM]: Are you good?
T15WIT [2:27 PM]: but I don' like you and your gay 17 self
T15WIT [2:27 PM]: you're prolly just discovering this
T15WIT [2:27 PM]: how long you been doin this eh?
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:27 PM]: Are you good at Java, you fucking irritating bitch.
T15WIT [2:27 PM]: Oh why thank you
T15WIT [2:27 PM]: Why do you give a fuck annoying bastard man?
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:27 PM]: I bet your a busted ass ugly bitch
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:28 PM]: that's never had a boyfriend
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:28 PM]: and never will
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:28 PM]: you'll have to adopt
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:28 PM]: hahaha
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:28 PM]: twat_commando.
T15WIT [2:28 PM]: believe what you want
T15WIT [2:28 PM]: hehe
T15WIT [2:28 PM]: guess you'll never know
T15WIT [2:28 PM]: well, bye faggot!
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:28 PM]: send me a pic then
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:28 PM]: and i'll say im sorry :P
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:28 PM]: until then your busted.
T15WIT [2:28 PM]: oh please, you think your physcology works that easily?
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:28 PM]: grill looks like some donkey took a shit in it
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:28 PM]: you know you love me.
T15WIT [2:28 PM]: heh
T15WIT [2:29 PM]: You know you want me sean
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:29 PM]: OMg how do u know my name?
T15WIT [2:29 PM]: w0oo
T15WIT [2:29 PM]: I'm physic!
T15WIT [2:29 PM]: Gasp!
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:29 PM]: haha
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:29 PM]: ya.
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:29 PM]: k.
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:29 PM]: i prolly told you :P
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:29 PM]: where u from tho?
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:29 PM]: hawaii?
T15WIT [2:29 PM]: nah, actually I just read ur lj
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:29 PM]: heh
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:29 PM]: shits hot
T15WIT [2:30 PM]: puh lease
T15WIT [2:30 PM]: my blogspot kicks ur ass there
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:30 PM]: yeah but
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:30 PM]: no one reads yours.
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:30 PM]: lol
T15WIT [2:30 PM]: i know
T15WIT [2:30 PM]: kinda like it that way too
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:30 PM]: ya?
T15WIT [2:30 PM]: ya
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:30 PM]: kewl.
T15WIT [2:30 PM]: Okay...why did you start talking to me again? Fucking bastard..
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:31 PM]: haha
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:31 PM]: I <3 u
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:31 PM]: u kno java
T15WIT [2:31 PM]: ::rolls eyes::
T15WIT [2:31 PM]: yeah
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:31 PM]: <3
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:31 PM]: c++ too?
T15WIT [2:31 PM]: and perl
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:31 PM]: wanna go out?
T15WIT [2:31 PM]: Heh, sorry I got myself a bf already
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:31 PM]: hes a bitch tho
T15WIT [2:32 PM]: Yes, but he codes too
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:32 PM]: like what.
T15WIT [2:32 PM]: like all of the above
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:32 PM]: his dick is small.
T15WIT [2:32 PM]: prolly, haven't really put enough effort to check it out yet
T15WIT [2:32 PM]: I'm a good girl
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:32 PM]: haha
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:32 PM]: you aint ever got that
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:32 PM]: you gotta pay him.
T15WIT [2:33 PM]: Yeah right
T15WIT [2:33 PM]: I wouldn't pay him, I'd pay someone a bit hotter
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:33 PM]: <-
T15WIT [2:33 PM]: Heh, no chance
T15WIT [2:33 PM]: I live no where near Hawaii
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:33 PM]: me neither
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:33 PM]: i live in florida
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:33 PM]: :\
T15WIT [2:34 PM]: Well, Myrtle Beach is a bit closer to Florida than that
T15WIT [2:34 PM]: but still far away
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:34 PM]: you got that myrtle beach?
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:34 PM]: thats in like virgina?
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:34 PM]: vargina
T15WIT [2:34 PM]: Nah, SC
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:34 PM]: virgin
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:34 PM]: you.
T15WIT [2:34 PM]: True
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:34 PM]: hah what a coincidence.
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:34 PM]: true;
T15WIT [2:35 PM]: And you prolly still are one
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:35 PM]: how old are you then?
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:35 PM]: nope
T15WIT [2:35 PM]: seeing that ur only 17 :p
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:35 PM]: kids grow up quick these days, u should know that.
T15WIT [2:35 PM]: how much u pay the chick then eh?
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:35 PM]: $100
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:35 PM]: hahah :P
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:35 PM]: yeah right.
T15WIT [2:35 PM]: Cheap bastard :p
T15WIT [2:36 PM]: 'course I'm a rich bitch so I shouldn't complain
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:36 PM]: yeah
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:36 PM]: k
T15WIT [2:36 PM]: My age:
T15WIT [2:36 PM]: 14
T15WIT [2:36 PM]: or 23
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:36 PM]: hahahah
T15WIT [2:36 PM]: or 74
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:36 PM]: -_-
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:36 PM]: ~_~
T15WIT [2:36 PM]: or w/e you think it is
T15WIT [2:36 PM]: :p
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:36 PM]: www.seanlopez.net/fu
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:36 PM]: plz
T15WIT [2:36 PM]: i've already seen enough of your shit to know ...specially with the "fuck you" thing there
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:36 PM]: haha
T15WIT [2:36 PM]: what is it? goatse?
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:36 PM]: no
T15WIT [2:37 PM]: heh, who cares
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:37 PM]: you do.
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:37 PM]: obviously.
T15WIT [2:37 PM]: not really
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:37 PM]: k
T15WIT [2:37 PM]: You're not the only one who pulls off that shit
T15WIT [2:37 PM]: oh and next time..
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:37 PM]: haha
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:37 PM]: next time what.
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:37 PM]: your advice is going to suck
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:37 PM]: "rename the url"
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:37 PM]: or something stupid
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:37 PM]: im going to fucking
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:37 PM]: get root
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:37 PM]: on your box
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:37 PM]: and fuck ur shit up
T15WIT [2:38 PM]: IIIlove you
T15WIT [2:38 PM]: sounds better
T15WIT [2:38 PM]: then showing the url with "Fu" in it
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:38 PM]: hey.
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:38 PM]: the reason fu is there
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:38 PM]: is so people dont click it
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:38 PM]: ~_~
T15WIT [2:38 PM]: Uh huh
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:38 PM]: and if they are retarded enough
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:38 PM]: to click it
T15WIT [2:38 PM]: and how many dumbasses will click it?
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:38 PM]: then they deserve it.
T15WIT [2:38 PM]: tons
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:38 PM]: yeah
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:38 PM]: hahaha
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:38 PM]: fucking
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:38 PM]: wal-mart shoppers
T15WIT [2:38 PM]: heh really
T15WIT [2:39 PM]: Now, i got some work I gotta finish fer physics, so I see ya till then, gay fag boy
T15WIT [2:39 PM]: adios!
Ub3rb00n7331 [2:40 PM]: you want me dick.
Auto response from T15WIT [2:40 PM]: away I be.








ha~ this lil' punk ass biach thinks he has a chance with moi! Well, that certainly boosted mah ego fer sure, that was fun, but onward to the college final study time!

today was a day.

Thank you.

"Seven Nation Army" White Stripes, another good one

Well..seems that I have been personally banned from Livejournal, seems that I'm the only christian in a group of atheists and I pissed them all off terribly for having a belief. Oh well, onward and upward eh? Besides I love this template ::hugglez template:: I wanna go to a concert...soon, I can't wait till finals are over, I swear sheesh I'm gonna be cramming all summer, I'm working all tonite too, seeing that FOX bought it we have deadlines now, tis fun, I'm happy. Okay, time for me to run off to French, but before I go, I gotta remind myself to go here, sara recommended it:

www.weebl.co.uk.com Hmm..i thinkies dats it...oh well I'll find out later..

In ten minutes mom is gonna wake me up at six thirty, I just read a few of my posts from my livejournal thingy and of course, I messed up again, I know nothing about the religion that I was took an entire summer to read about, all of those different books that help me realize to myself that there had to be a god, and it wasn't the books that did it, oh no, it was the nature that surrounded me and kept me at peace, and there I went, stating my opinions that aren't based on facts, god forbid! *sigh* Oh well, at least I have my blog here to keep me company... ::hugglez::



which reminds me, fear time: I have a fear that Carson sees me as Sara. He mentions her in every conversation we have now, and he likes to pick on her, and whenever I mention it I sound selfish and bratty, like a little kid..I think I'll stay outside today, they won't care, they could live their entire lives without me now, yes, I will stay outside and avoid all of them because they won't care, and I'll go back to being alone again because it's probably the thing that will create the least harm for my heart and just me.

"Buddy Holly" Weezer, my favorite..

"Buddy Holly" Weezer, my favorite..


so world, time for me to breathe, I have an essay due but it can wait another day, I want to have a break, I went to the movies with Carson, I want to make out and who knows, have sex with him, wish he was here, I'm horny yes, I know, I'm feelin' like a punk ass biach and like I wanna have my way, god I wanna fuck him right now...dammit, I got work to do, screw that though, I'm tired too, but I don't give a fuck, all I need is some coffee to get me through the nite, okay bye, I'm gonna go do some "stuff"


Oh yeah, yesterday, totally fuckin awesome. Thank you. And I love to act. Nite world!

FOX BOUGHT IT FOX BOUGHT IT FOX BOUGHT THE SHOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


YYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Omg, can't breathe, soooo awesome....YES!

I miss dance

Ah, Red Hot Chili Peppers, I dun curr if you're considered mainstream, I still love ya, and I love "Can't Stop" just an awesome song...anyway

I miss dancing, I've been having all of these hand stand contests and I've been doing some of the gymnastic things my lil bro and sis are doing and I've been doing crunches and I'm still fat but I don' care, I like to do it. gotta work tonite, I love to act. I love movies too. I love life, hmm maybe I can take a dancing class next year....*wonders* Och aye, not now..


*End of Song* I'm gone.

I miss dance

Ah, Red Hot Chili Peppers, I dun curr if you're considered mainstream, I still love ya, and I love "Can't Stop" just an awesome song...anyway

I miss dancing, I've been having all of these hand stand contests and I've been doing some of the gymnastic things my lil bro and sis are doing and I've been doing crunches and I'm still fat but I don' care, I like to do it. gotta work tonite, I love to act. I love movies too. I love life, hmm maybe I can take a dancing class next year....*wonders* Och aye, not now..


*End of Song* I'm gone.

*smooch*


I love life.


Those red roses
on the ground
are my love
when you're not around


ha, sad, made that right now, go me.

I've been drawin' in my sketchbook.

hmm..I feel a bit sorry for Brandon, he once had three girls after him, and now they all don't want him, sorry Brandie, ya broke hearts, and ya didn't do anything about it anyway! You just had this flush of girls come to you and show their emotions, and then "woosh!" they're all gone, Terribly Sorry to hear all of this. Funny thing is, you've never talked of it, you never showed any emotions, you were like a rock, you just sat there while all of this happened around you, and that shows inhuman like qualities, so we'll have to kill you know, alien. *gets out shotgun*

I'm in the mood to confuse everyone, I remember having so much fun doing it before, intwining a poor unsuspecting fool into all of this belief of created ideas and games, I love it, I love it so much, I remember making guys I hated that I liked them, and guys I liked that I detest them, oh all the fun and joy. I love making people believe I'm this character who I'm really not. I love creating all these charades, no one does know me, I appeal to the person I'm with, I can change from a goth to a comp. geek in "less than a nanosecond" w00t, fun times everyone, fun times..I love to act. *bows* Thank you all for playing this game, thank you for letting me be this character of who I'm not truly! I had fun! I love you all! Or do I? Heh/lol you'll never know.

I'm watching Comedy central right now, and I feel better, than I did before.

You see, there is this term called "bitch".

I'm called one about everyday from about anyone.

Sara and Devon seem to not care about it, Devon was like "I'm now a bitch, I'm the bitch, and it's Ms. Bitch to you." But, I can't stand to be called it. I guess it'sbecause of dad, he's made me cry before, and he just recently made me cry again, he'll do this "*sigh* Tory why do you have to be such a bitch?" What gets me is, I'm not even being bitchy, I'm statiing my opinion, now if someone else stated the same opinion my dad would see them as a high individual with different morals.....I just hate to be called it, he hates me enough, I know.

LOVING ONE. You need safety in your relationship.
You want to be sure in his/her arms, knowing
that he will protect you and you can be totally
devoted to your other. At this point you are
very vulnerable. You open yourself and dont
even think that he/she could cheat you. You
totally trust your partner in every single way.
SO if you find out that she/he lied to you or
played a game this trust is broken. You may try
to forgive your other but this will be very
difficult.He/She has to be friendly and
trustworthy.
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.
You can always message me or tell me how I can
improve that quiz. Ill sure write back.


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Fight Club!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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Eh??


Punk! My kind of friend. You could care less what
other ppl think of you. You want friends who
like you for who you are and not what you have.
I mean, sure, sometimes you stick fries up your
nose, but thats ok. People love you because you
crack them up immensly! Your amoung friends!
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K, time for french, PEACE OUT PPL!

I think I will give everyone I see a sunflower one day. I'd need alot of sunflowers, oh well, I have the kit, I'll do it. I'm going to work in the garden this summer, and I'll make a sunflower garden. Yes, I'll do that.

"I left you,
with the feeling,
of something left unsaid,
and I lay here,
wondering what it was,
when it comes to me,
I love you."

I had a meeting last night with the church on the land meeting, but I was reminded that I had to do something, I love little Mikey, he has such a bad home and such a bad situation, and I know I've been his big bro (tis a joke, one time I took him to the the circus and he said "We're just like sisters!" and I was like "Yeah, suure, lil sis...heehe" "No I mean...okay big bro" so we've been calling each other that, but man does he have such a sad situation, I remember that one time I had him come over to my house and I helped him with his homework, and he was interested in mechanics and I showed him the basic layout of our car and how the thing basically works..I haven't seen him for a long time now..I wonder how he's been doing..I have to ask that question to him about if he'd like to go to camp for free this summer..*sigh* off to econ..

Hello, good ol' bloggie, I guess I better get on the ball with my work, but first I would like to say how I like Carson, not love, I'm taking it down a notch. we're slowly drifting, which is fine, because we need someone else, I can't ever get to know him, I won't end it now, but slowly and surely it'll end by next school year, I can tell you that. There are other guys out there, and also i went too far with Carson, so I'll never do that again, no we didn't ever have sex, don't worry, I believe in abstinence and I'm sticking with it, but we have gotten in some erm "odd positions" well, yes kinda like that, just some odd hugs, anyway, I have a problem with how ugly I am, of course I have insecurities, don't we all? I hate myself secretly. I do, so bad at everything..ack oh well, deep down I'm a perfectionist, and I like to point out all my impurities, oh well, I think that far away I'm pretty, but up close if you look hard enough, I'm ugly as all get out. Hmm, illusions eh? I also feel like I need a change with this life, but what? I don't know, but I will change it, I can tell you that. Okay, I best get to work on my old homework, Buh bye world!

T15WIT: So, how goes your love life eh?
T15WIT: Still paranoid, or what?
ImABadAstronaut7: i had reason to
ImABadAstronaut7: she broke up with me last night
ImABadAstronaut7: and now i wish i was dead
T15WIT: ooh
T15WIT: Poor ryan, stupid to ask if you're okay is it?
T15WIT: Did she leave you for another man?
T15WIT: Or do you "not want to talk about it"?
T15WIT: Because I'll leave if that's what you want
T15WIT: but I'll also listen if you want to rant
ImABadAstronaut7: no
ImABadAstronaut7: she didnt leave me for someone else
ImABadAstronaut7: thats what happened last time
ImABadAstronaut7: she said she just stopped liking me that way
T15WIT: i see
ImABadAstronaut7: she wants to be friends
T15WIT: oh
ImABadAstronaut7: that "she isnt leaving me, but she just wants to change the relationship"
T15WIT: I'm sorry
T15WIT: I really am
T15WIT: I don't know whether to tell you "But maybe it's for the best." Or to tell you to "I'll...go now..."
ImABadAstronaut7: nah its not your fault
T15WIT: I have a question though
T15WIT: Not to be rude, but did you ever like Chelsea?
T15WIT: I've just been wondering and never got enough audacity to ask..
T15WIT: actually that I shouldn't ask, it isn't my situation, sorry I guess I am nosy..
ImABadAstronaut7: no not really
T15WIT: Okay
ImABadAstronaut7: i thought i did while i was there, but i didnt
T15WIT: Ah, gotcha
T15WIT: Well, maybe it is for the best man
ImABadAstronaut7: wha?
T15WIT: I mean, maybe if you were still with her, you would've had to pass up on someone better
ImABadAstronaut7: still with who?
T15WIT: life is pretty odd, ya never know
ImABadAstronaut7: im so lost with everything
T15WIT: Aren't we all?
T15WIT: I mean, who here actually knows what they are doing?
ImABadAstronaut7: but not everyone wants to kill themselves
ImABadAstronaut7: not for love at least
T15WIT: Meh, you'd be surprised
T15WIT: Not everyone, but a great number
ImABadAstronaut7: thats true
ImABadAstronaut7: maybe theyve got something there
T15WIT: seeing that my bf was on the verge of killing himself when I decided to breathe a weekend without him there
ImABadAstronaut7: if i were to die, i wouldnt miss ashley anymore
T15WIT: ...of course I did it on Valentine's day...ouch, not the best of times
ImABadAstronaut7: ironic, thats the same day i asked her out
T15WIT: But if you died, you wouldn't meet maybe that one girl who saves your life
T15WIT: I had the weirdest Valentine's day
T15WIT: Because on the Tuesday of that week, I told him, no more, I needed to breathe for a couple of days
T15WIT: Then on Saturday *valentines* it was raining, and I went to the local library, and he was there
T15WIT: weird how ironic my life seems to be
T15WIT: We didn't know each other would be there, and we worked out there that day
T15WIT: so it was a mixed blessing.
ImABadAstronaut7: hmm
ImABadAstronaut7: i hate my life
T15WIT: Wait a sec, I'm here to listen to you! Sorry, got carried away
ImABadAstronaut7: i ency you
ImABadAstronaut7: envy*
ImABadAstronaut7: you have someone that loves you
ImABadAstronaut7: i dont have that
T15WIT: Oh brohter
T15WIT: *brother
T15WIT: This guy that loves me about every week, goes from "I love ya Tor' " to "Listen, you're a bitch tory, I can't stand you, why did I ever go with you?"
ImABadAstronaut7: at least you have someone to say those things
T15WIT: and then "I'm such a dick, i'm so sorry tory, I do love you." etc
T15WIT: Well, Ryan, just because one left you doesn't mean there's a better one out there
ImABadAstronaut7: i love her, and only her
T15WIT: You're young.
ImABadAstronaut7: ive loved her since 5th fucking grade
ImABadAstronaut7: i was young then too, but i still loved her
T15WIT: ...and it's ninth now?
T15WIT: Four Years?
ImABadAstronaut7: yes
T15WIT: brb
T15WIT: You've loved her for four years
T15WIT: and the average human lifespan is what, 80 years?
ImABadAstronaut7: i dont know
ImABadAstronaut7: probably
ImABadAstronaut7: ill die around 115 though
T15WIT: So for only 1/20 th of your life *alot of it not even near her* you're willing to kill yourself
ImABadAstronaut7: everyone in my family has died past 100 years old
T15WIT: Wow, that's kewl
T15WIT: So it's less than that!
ImABadAstronaut7: still
ImABadAstronaut7: im 15, and ive liked for for 4 years
ImABadAstronaut7: thats almost 1/4 of my life
ImABadAstronaut7: so look at it that way
ImABadAstronaut7: if i can love her for that long, how could i possibly stop liking her?
ImABadAstronaut7: i dont even want to
ImABadAstronaut7: i love her
ImABadAstronaut7: i always have
ImABadAstronaut7: but she doesnt care about me that way
ImABadAstronaut7: and if i died, i wouldnt have to miss her anymore
T15WIT: But if you died, someone else would miss you
ImABadAstronaut7: i dont care
T15WIT: and then they'd kill themselves, and then someone who cared for them would kill themselves, and then it'd be a neverending process
ImABadAstronaut7: wed all die
ImABadAstronaut7: we'd*
T15WIT: I know.
ImABadAstronaut7: and i would be the cause of the destruction of the human race
T15WIT: You'd be a mass murderer and you wouldn't even know it :p
ImABadAstronaut7: but i dont care
T15WIT: You would make her unhappy.
T15WIT: Or do you think she wouldn't care if you did that?
T15WIT: Think in her spot for once
ImABadAstronaut7: but it wouldnt compare to how unhappy i am
T15WIT: Are you sure?
T15WIT: What if she comes back to you soon and says "I'm sorry, I made a mistake" or something like that
ImABadAstronaut7: she isnt
T15WIT: and there'd you be, dead..too late
ImABadAstronaut7: i know that
T15WIT: Ryan, Don't you damn well kill yourself.
ImABadAstronaut7: why not
T15WIT: I'll come over there and make sure you don't do it.
T15WIT: Because she's not worth it!
ImABadAstronaut7: you dont even know where i am
T15WIT: She's not worth you killing yourself!
ImABadAstronaut7: yes she is
T15WIT: I don't give a shit
ImABadAstronaut7: killing myself is worth getting away from all this pain
T15WIT: She ripped out your heart. Don't you kill yourself man, don't you do it
T15WIT: And I never wanna hear you talk such bull shit again Ryan!
T15WIT: Argh
ImABadAstronaut7: fine leave me too
T15WIT: You know what?
ImABadAstronaut7: waht?
T15WIT: Fuck it, You live your life the way you want to. I don't give a damn anymore, I should have never talked Carson out of suicide, I shouldn't have ever talked Ben out of suicide, and I shouldn't have ever tried with you.
T15WIT: I'm gone.






Fuck it indeed, no more of that shit for me.

I'm about to go beserk, my mom hates my choice in men, no? Carson will be coming over, but A) We'll have to sit on seperate couches, and B) I have to do yardwork all day, so at least I can see him off in a distance, she really is pushing this relationship to the limit, and she hates him, well, also I think dad has a thing in it too, one side of me questions if it's worth it, while another side says, I gotta see my baby, *I haven't seen him in two weeks* and there are other men I know, but hell, none of them want me, so far in this life, Carson is the only one who has ever told me he liked me. First one, i'm 14, first one. This relationship has been 5 months so far, May 3rd or something will be half a year I've been with him, my first relationship, my parent's and it seems all my friends think i've been with him too long

"Gurl, u got 2 get out more lol."


"But, why leave when I'm happy?"

Usually this would end from a "w/e" from her but then I would play it out in my head if she was very argumentative..

"Pssh, how do u know ur happy"

"Because I feel happy, and.."

"U dun know if u could be happier"

"Um..erm"

"Yah well, dat's my point"

"*sigh* maybe you're right*



but of course, I don't know, I don't want to think about it, Mom's home, I'm gonna go do yardwork, and ya know, the yardwork doesn't bother me, not as much as I know I have homework I gotta get in this busy schedule too..

Dancing
In the mirror
You could see her from a mile man
She was alright
She looked right over her shoulder
Right at me
I was falling through the floor now
She came, over me

Help me, oh help me,
She's out of her mind
Help me, oh help me
Somebody tonight

Laughing, all night
She could tell a funny story
She could stay up all night
She was someone to remember
She was black and white
We did it on a sunbed
And she did it right

Help me, oh help me,
She's out of her mind
Help me, somebody
Oh help me, tonight

Prancing, around a low lit light
Running rags over her shoulders
Red chilli lights
She drink you underneath the table
She hold you heavenly tight
Slap you right across ya white face
She make you cry like a child

Help me, oh help me,
She's out of her mind
Help me, oh help me
Somebody, tonight

Crazy, out of her mind
You wanna shoot her wanna love her
You can't make up your mind
You wanna tell her all your stories
Wanna open your mind
You wanna show her how your heart works
But she ain't got the time

You're fighting, all the time
There's nothing working, nothing gaining
Just a waste of time
You're trying hard to remember
All the beautiful times
But yer clouded by the bullshit
All of the time

Loving, on a Saturday night, making love under a blanket
With the telly on loud
You wanna show her that you love her
But there's sex on ya mind
Makin' love from watching movies
I think I'm doin' it right

Help me, oh help me
She's out of, her mind
Help me, so help me
Somebody tonight




Why do i feel this somehow in a way describes my relationship with Carson?

Of course, this does too:

Some people live four fourtune
some people live for the fame
some people live for the power yeah
some people live just to play the game
some people think that the phical thang define what within
and I bein there before that life surrport of all of the super fical

Chours

Some people want it all
but I don't want nothin at all
if it anit' you baby
if I ani't got you baby
some people want dimond rings
some just want everything
but everything means nothing
if I ani't got you yeah

Verse 2

Some people such for the fountain
promises for ever yours
some people need it doesn't wrong thang
thats the olny prove love him
and in a world on a super pattern and was but what it mean
know one to share
know one that truly cares for me

Chours

Some people want it all
but I don't want nothing at all if it ani't you baby if I ani't got you baby
some people want dimond rings
some just want everythang
but everything means nothing
if I ani't got you you you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
if it ani't you baby
if I ani't got you baby
some people want dimond rings
some just want every thang
but every thang means nothing
if I ani't got you yeahhhh



Of course, whoever was the dumbass who wrote those lyrics incorrectly, anyway, ya get the gist of it all..

My day was okay, isn't that great?

Everybody wants to die, pssh, what a bunch of angsty teens, well, they are my friends and I do like 'em all, even I'm angsty at times, ayup.

Mom pointed out to me how Brandon and Bryan are flirting with me.

I pointed out to her that's she is completely wrong.

She told me "Uh huh..suuure"

So now i'm confuzzled and backing offa those two for a while..

Life


Life is life

I really just don't want to do my homework right now


Hi world, bought myself a sketchbook, I think I'll have another glass of mexican wine

erm.. yeah, bought myself a sketchbook, I think I'll go sketch now, bye world

yet another one

wolfsbane366 [9:48 PM]: ....
wolfsbane366 [9:48 PM]: i hope I never see another quadratic equation graph again.... ever
T15WIT [9:48 PM]: Me too~
wolfsbane366 [9:48 PM]: i have pastel nail polish i'm gonna give bryan
wolfsbane366 [9:48 PM]: weee ^_^
T15WIT [9:48 PM]: that's good :D
wolfsbane366 [9:48 PM]: he said he wanted it
wolfsbane366 [9:49 PM]: !!!!!!!!!!!!!
wolfsbane366 [9:49 PM]: *explodes*
wolfsbane366 [9:49 PM]: *deplodes*
wolfsbane366 [9:49 PM]: Wooooo!
wolfsbane366 [9:49 PM]: i'm HYPER GOD
wolfsbane366 [9:49 PM]: okay... deep breaths
T15WIT [9:49 PM]: are you hypah?
T15WIT [9:49 PM]: or just "Hyper"?
wolfsbane366 [9:49 PM]: either one really
wolfsbane366 [9:49 PM]: ^_^
wolfsbane366 [9:50 PM]: i had canday
T15WIT [9:50 PM]: ME TOO!
wolfsbane366 [9:50 PM]: lolz
wolfsbane366 [9:50 PM]: lollerz
wolfsbane366 [9:50 PM]: lolzness
T15WIT [9:50 PM]: wowzer
T15WIT [9:50 PM]: What a coinkydink
T15WIT [9:50 PM]: :D
wolfsbane366 [9:50 PM]: *eats chocolate*
wolfsbane366 [9:50 PM]: tis a chocolate bunny
T15WIT [9:50 PM]: DUN EAT DA BUNNY!
T15WIT [9:50 PM]: *snchinimaff*
wolfsbane366 [9:50 PM]: i'm bringing bartholomew higgins to skool tomorrow
T15WIT [9:51 PM]: God
T15WIT [9:51 PM]: erm.
T15WIT [9:51 PM]: Good
wolfsbane366 [9:51 PM]: lolz
wolfsbane366 [9:51 PM]: Carson & Ben get to meet Barthy
T15WIT [9:51 PM]: yay!
T15WIT [9:51 PM]: wait..
T15WIT [9:51 PM]: What's the other one's name o.O?
wolfsbane366 [9:51 PM]: which one?
wolfsbane366 [9:52 PM]: the white one used to be Balthazar, but I got too many "is it from Charmed?" questions
wolfsbane366 [9:52 PM]: so I changed his name to Bartholomew Higgins
wolfsbane366 [9:52 PM]: the yellow one doesn't have a name yet
T15WIT [9:52 PM]: The later one :)
T15WIT [9:52 PM]: oo0t
T15WIT [9:52 PM]: can can can'
T15WIT [9:52 PM]: CAN I GIVE IT A NAME?!
T15WIT [9:52 PM]: OMG!
T15WIT [9:52 PM]: CAN I BE IT'S GODMOTHER?!
wolfsbane366 [9:52 PM]: i say we go to Bryan's house and kidnap him...
wolfsbane366 [9:52 PM]: oh u
wolfsbane366 [9:52 PM]: m
T15WIT [9:52 PM]: PLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEE
wolfsbane366 [9:52 PM]: sure?
T15WIT [9:53 PM]: YAY!
T15WIT [9:53 PM]: yAY!
T15WIT [9:53 PM]: I
wolfsbane366 [9:53 PM]: you're... way too happy about this
T15WIT [9:53 PM]: I'm a godmother!
T15WIT [9:53 PM]: ^____^
T15WIT [9:53 PM]: w00t
wolfsbane366 [9:53 PM]: OH NO!
T15WIT [9:53 PM]: And I'm chubby!
T15WIT [9:53 PM]: yayay!
wolfsbane366 [9:53 PM]: I LEFT BARTHOLOMEW HIGGINS IN THE KITCHEN!!!
wolfsbane366 [9:53 PM]: *fetches*
T15WIT [9:53 PM]: I'll give 'em lotsa candy
T15WIT [9:53 PM]: I pwomise :D
wolfsbane366 [9:54 PM]: woohoo
wolfsbane366 [9:54 PM]: *huggles Bartholomew Higgins*
T15WIT [9:54 PM]: aww
T15WIT [9:54 PM]: Soo
T15WIT [9:54 PM]: Can the other duckie be mortimer?
wolfsbane366 [9:54 PM]: O.o
T15WIT [9:54 PM]: Puh lease!
wolfsbane366 [9:54 PM]: mortimer seems a depressing name for such a cute big-headed duckie
T15WIT [9:54 PM]: well I dun care!
T15WIT [9:54 PM]: I'll still call him Morty
T15WIT [9:54 PM]: Cuz I can!
T15WIT [9:55 PM]: or maybe pepe
wolfsbane366 [9:55 PM]: lol
wolfsbane366 [9:55 PM]: sure
T15WIT [9:55 PM]: Pepe...hmm
wolfsbane366 [9:55 PM]: he can be either pepe or mortimer
T15WIT [9:55 PM]: HMMMMMm
wolfsbane366 [9:55 PM]: as long as bartholomew-higgins remains bartholomew-higgins
T15WIT [9:55 PM]: Gimme time to think on this one
T15WIT [9:55 PM]: Sir Pepe Mortimer Cox
T15WIT [9:55 PM]: Of the third reich
wolfsbane366 [9:55 PM]: lolz
T15WIT [9:55 PM]: yes yes that sounds good ^_^
wolfsbane366 [9:55 PM]: ........
wolfsbane366 [9:55 PM]: woo
T15WIT [9:55 PM]: oot oot Sara
wolfsbane366 [9:55 PM]: yes?
T15WIT [9:56 PM]: It's an advertisement! :
wolfsbane366 [9:56 PM]: O.o
wolfsbane366 [9:56 PM]: NOOOOOOOO!!!
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wolfsbane366 [9:57 PM]: lolz
wolfsbane366 [9:57 PM]: hehehehe
wolfsbane366 [9:57 PM]: tis funny
wolfsbane366 [9:57 PM]: ^_^
T15WIT [9:57 PM]: w00t
wolfsbane366 [9:57 PM]: I say
T15WIT [9:57 PM]: you see, ur skinny u dun need it
wolfsbane366 [9:57 PM]: we go to Bryan's house
T15WIT [9:57 PM]: T_T
wolfsbane366 [9:57 PM]: and kidnap him
T15WIT [9:57 PM]: No, he made me cry
wolfsbane366 [9:57 PM]: and sell him to the black market in exchange for more ducks!
wolfsbane366 [9:57 PM]: yay!
wolfsbane366 [9:57 PM]: Awww...
wolfsbane366 [9:57 PM]: how did he do that?
T15WIT [9:57 PM]: He he
T15WIT [9:57 PM]: (I dun wanna talk about it)
wolfsbane366 [9:57 PM]: =(
T15WIT [9:58 PM]: He he he
T15WIT [9:58 PM]: *cries*
T15WIT [9:58 PM]: WAAAh
wolfsbane366 [9:58 PM]: NOOO!!!
wolfsbane366 [9:58 PM]: *comforts*
T15WIT [9:58 PM]: He's just so friggin ugly!
T15WIT [9:58 PM]: *Make it go away mommy, make it go away!*
T15WIT [9:58 PM]: *gets into fetal position on floor*
T15WIT [9:58 PM]: *sucks thumb*
T15WIT [9:58 PM]: *rocks back and forth*
T15WIT [9:58 PM]: "The pain, the ugliness, the utter carnage"
wolfsbane366 [9:59 PM]: lolz
wolfsbane366 [9:59 PM]: he is not ugly
T15WIT [9:59 PM]: Yes he is
wolfsbane366 [9:59 PM]: i think he's cute.... *blush*
wolfsbane366 [9:59 PM]: i like his hair
T15WIT [9:59 PM]: compared to his hott friend over dere
T15WIT [9:59 PM]: *cough*
wolfsbane366 [9:59 PM]: lolz
T15WIT [9:59 PM]: No
wolfsbane366 [9:59 PM]: he's cuter.... his hair is better
T15WIT [9:59 PM]: You know who's hott?
wolfsbane366 [9:59 PM]: er... Bryan
wolfsbane366 [9:59 PM]: who?
T15WIT [9:59 PM]: HUGH JAcKMAN! THAT's WHO!
wolfsbane366 [9:59 PM]: bah
wolfsbane366 [9:59 PM]: that's.... lovely
T15WIT [9:59 PM]: He kicks tobey's butt anyday I tell ya!
wolfsbane366 [9:59 PM]: *twitch*
T15WIT [9:59 PM]: BOOM!
wolfsbane366 [10:00 PM]: TOBEY IS HOTTER NYAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T15WIT [10:00 PM]: IS NOT
wolfsbane366 [10:00 PM]: *huggles Spiderman plushie*
wolfsbane366 [10:00 PM]: OMG
T15WIT [10:00 PM]: HE'S A WUSS!
wolfsbane366 [10:00 PM]: they had spiderman plushies at wal-mart!!!
wolfsbane366 [10:00 PM]: I wanted one soooo bad
T15WIT [10:00 PM]: lol really?
T15WIT [10:00 PM]: that's kewl
wolfsbane366 [10:00 PM]: but didn't get one *shniff*
wolfsbane366 [10:00 PM]: yes
T15WIT [10:00 PM]: ,,i think
T15WIT [10:00 PM]: yes, you got a "duck" instead
wolfsbane366 [10:00 PM]: lolz
wolfsbane366 [10:00 PM]: ducks rawk
T15WIT [10:00 PM]: rawk?
T15WIT [10:00 PM]: Rawk eh?
wolfsbane366 [10:01 PM]: yes
T15WIT [10:01 PM]: Rawk Krawk Pawk Mawk Lawk
T15WIT [10:01 PM]: Lawks of Rawk
wolfsbane366 [10:01 PM]: btw i'm writing a LJ entry about me singing, if you even hint to why i'll hurt you
wolfsbane366 [10:01 PM]: and then I'll scorn you and won't talk to you for 10 days and 10 nights
T15WIT [10:01 PM]: ...........................................................
T15WIT [10:01 PM]: what?
T15WIT [10:01 PM]: um, wait
T15WIT [10:01 PM]: Why are you singing?
wolfsbane366 [10:01 PM]: IF YOU SAY I WAS HAPPY TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL SO I COULD SEE BRYAN I'LL KILL YOU
T15WIT [10:02 PM]: What are you singing?
wolfsbane366 [10:02 PM]: okay
wolfsbane366 [10:02 PM]: now that that's over
T15WIT [10:02 PM]: Oh..
T15WIT [10:02 PM]: I see
T15WIT [10:02 PM]: *cough*
wolfsbane366 [10:02 PM]: the whole "back 2 school" thing
wolfsbane366 [10:02 PM]: *coff coff*
T15WIT [10:02 PM]: Ya know, now I'll have to do it
T15WIT [10:02 PM]: 00t
T15WIT [10:02 PM]: :D
T15WIT [10:02 PM]: Jk,
T15WIT [10:02 PM]: Dun worry
T15WIT [10:02 PM]: Ize kewl likies dat
wolfsbane366 [10:02 PM]: lolz
wolfsbane366 [10:02 PM]: ....
wolfsbane366 [10:02 PM]: please don't
T15WIT [10:02 PM]: besides, you got durt on me here
wolfsbane366 [10:02 PM]: =(
T15WIT [10:02 PM]: about hugh and all
wolfsbane366 [10:02 PM]: yesss
T15WIT [10:02 PM]: Carson'ed kill
wolfsbane366 [10:02 PM]: muahahahahaha!
T15WIT [10:03 PM]: so um...
T15WIT [10:03 PM]: PINKY PWOMISE?
wolfsbane366 [10:03 PM]: psst.... hey Carson... tory thinks hugh jackman is hotter than you... so you hafta kill him now eh??
wolfsbane366 [10:03 PM]: pinky promise ^_^
T15WIT [10:03 PM]: *extends pinky*
T15WIT [10:03 PM]: .....
wolfsbane366 [10:03 PM]: ....
T15WIT [10:03 PM]: evil
wolfsbane366 [10:03 PM]: how do you do a pinky promise again
T15WIT [10:03 PM]: oh okay
wolfsbane366 [10:03 PM]: ??
T15WIT [10:03 PM]: I dun exactly know..
T15WIT [10:03 PM]: But it sounds fun!
T15WIT [10:03 PM]: och, aye brb

Yet another Conversation..

not quite me07 [5:03 PM]: hi
T15WIT [5:03 PM]: hi
not quite me07 [5:03 PM]: http://www.freewebs.com/justme07/
not quite me07 [5:04 PM]: i added more stuff
T15WIT [5:04 PM]: I've noticed
not quite me07 [5:04 PM]: but it takes a while to load
T15WIT [5:04 PM]: more pictures?
not quite me07 [5:04 PM]: today
not quite me07 [5:04 PM]: yes
T15WIT [5:04 PM]: kewl
T15WIT [5:04 PM]: okay
not quite me07 [5:04 PM]: so how r u?
T15WIT [5:05 PM]: I'm odd
T15WIT [5:05 PM]: like always
not quite me07 [5:05 PM]: lol
T15WIT [5:05 PM]: you?
not quite me07 [5:05 PM]: im not quite sure
T15WIT [5:05 PM]: That's good to know :p
not quite me07 [5:06 PM]: : (
T15WIT [5:06 PM]: aw, why the sad face ?
not quite me07 [5:06 PM]: i dunno
not quite me07 [5:06 PM]: i killed bryan
T15WIT [5:06 PM]: Oh, okay
not quite me07 [5:06 PM]: % s
T15WIT [5:07 PM]: exactly
not quite me07 [5:07 PM]: yup
not quite me07 [5:07 PM]: ironic detachment
T15WIT [5:07 PM]: hmm
T15WIT [5:07 PM]: Why'd ya kill him?
not quite me07 [5:08 PM]: he tempted me
T15WIT [5:08 PM]: Oh?
T15WIT [5:08 PM]: Well, than he deserved it I suppose
not quite me07 [5:09 PM]: yes
not quite me07 [5:09 PM]: he did
not quite me07 [5:09 PM]: its nice of u to have invited ne to dine with u tonight
not quite me07 [5:09 PM]: *me
not quite me07 [5:09 PM]: lol
not quite me07 [5:09 PM]: quoting movie
T15WIT [5:09 PM]: yay
T15WIT [5:10 PM]: Don' mind a bit at all dearie
not quite me07 [5:10 PM]: ive never asked ne one to marry me before
not quite me07 [5:10 PM]: i havent done ne thing stupid all day
not quite me07 [5:11 PM]: what happens when a journalist falls in love with an idiot
T15WIT [5:11 PM]: Hmm
T15WIT [5:11 PM]: I cannot tell
not quite me07 [5:11 PM]: the 2 are one in the same
not quite me07 [5:11 PM]: ok
T15WIT [5:11 PM]: Because I'm not a journalist
not quite me07 [5:11 PM]: that didnt work out well
T15WIT [5:11 PM]: but I can tell you what it feels like to fall in love with a complete fool
not quite me07 [5:11 PM]: lol
not quite me07 [5:12 PM]: can we give u a ride to the airport
not quite me07 [5:13 PM]: silence
not quite me07 [5:13 PM]: i am no superman
not quite me07 [5:13 PM]: i have no reason for u
T15WIT [5:13 PM]: Hmm
T15WIT [5:13 PM]: What movie ye be quotin' there eh?
not quite me07 [5:14 PM]: um
not quite me07 [5:14 PM]: 100 deeds
T15WIT [5:14 PM]: ..of Eddie McDowd?
T15WIT [5:14 PM]: nvm
not quite me07 [5:14 PM]: i mean mr deeds
T15WIT [5:14 PM]: ooo
T15WIT [5:14 PM]: okay
not quite me07 [5:14 PM]: lol
not quite me07 [5:15 PM]: whoa feeling great
not quite me07 [5:15 PM]: who are ya kick'n i aint got no balls dummy
T15WIT [5:16 PM]: yay
not quite me07 [5:16 PM]: good kick honey good kick
T15WIT [5:16 PM]: I've only seen I think one movie with Adam Sandler
T15WIT [5:16 PM]: and it was anger management
not quite me07 [5:16 PM]: dont worry about what happened time heals all things
not quite me07 [5:16 PM]: i saw that too
not quite me07 [5:16 PM]: i have it
T15WIT [5:17 PM]: kewl
not quite me07 [5:17 PM]: the first crush of the school year and the last love of his life
T15WIT [5:18 PM]: Hmm
not quite me07 [5:18 PM]: quoting a daydream i had earlier
T15WIT [5:18 PM]: Oh?
T15WIT [5:18 PM]: I've had a few of those lately
not quite me07 [5:18 PM]: yeah
not quite me07 [5:18 PM]: ive had a lot
not quite me07 [5:19 PM]: it wont stop. it wont stop
not quite me07 [5:19 PM]: thats another quote from another dream
T15WIT [5:19 PM]: now I'm confused if you're quoting from a daydream or the movie or you're trying to talk
not quite me07 [5:19 PM]: right now the day dreams
T15WIT [5:19 PM]: oh okay
T15WIT [5:19 PM]: I had a daydream
not quite me07 [5:19 PM]: what about
not quite me07 [5:19 PM]: ???
not quite me07 [5:20 PM]: there have been 2 resurrections
not quite me07 [5:21 PM]: out of the 39 deaths
not quite me07 [5:21 PM]: hmmm
T15WIT [5:22 PM]: where I was walking with a boy and he wanted to have sex, but I told him "no" because I wanted to be true to my husband and he said how in this day and age that my husband probably would've had sex before he ever met me, and then I kicked the boy and left and I tried to walk home but it was about like 18 miles from where I was and I got picked up by these guys in a car and they raped me and the last thing I saw was a drop of blood/tear come from my eye and I thought before I died, now I can never have a
T15WIT [5:22 PM]: true love
not quite me07 [5:22 PM]: hmmm
not quite me07 [5:22 PM]: ...
T15WIT [5:22 PM]: Yep, I'm weird like that
T15WIT [5:23 PM]: and it's not me I see
T15WIT [5:23 PM]: it's some other girl
T15WIT [5:23 PM]: in some other place
T15WIT [5:23 PM]: and that's weird
not quite me07 [5:23 PM]: yeah
not quite me07 [5:24 PM]: i wanted ot be a ping png champion
T15WIT [5:24 PM]: Mr. deeds quote I think
not quite me07 [5:24 PM]: yes
not quite me07 [5:25 PM]: u wann know what my day dream was aobut
T15WIT [5:25 PM]: sure
not quite me07 [5:25 PM]: ok
not quite me07 [5:28 PM]: i ran away from home and stayed at bryans house. well one night i cut my wrists and bryan found me in the bathtub crying and saying it wont stop. he wrapped up my wrists and laid with me till i fell asleep. then he called a bunch of people and told them to meet us at the mall. he was hoping that seeing more people would take me out of my depressive state. they stayed the night, but one of them found me in the bathrrom and i had cut my wrists again. so they locked me in a room. tehn in he morning they tried to force feed me. i ended up screaming super loud and runnign away and thtas the last htye ever saw of me
T15WIT [5:29 PM]: hmm
not quite me07 [5:29 PM]: happy story
T15WIT [5:29 PM]: Yes indeed
not quite me07 [5:29 PM]: did u notice it was in past tense
T15WIT [5:29 PM]: yes
not quite me07 [5:29 PM]: odd
not quite me07 [5:29 PM]: huh?
not quite me07 [5:30 PM]: lol
not quite me07 [5:30 PM]: i like urs better
T15WIT [5:30 PM]: Nah, yours is okay
not quite me07 [5:30 PM]: of course
not quite me07 [5:30 PM]: but urs is better
T15WIT [5:30 PM]: thanks :-P
T15WIT [5:30 PM]: But I still like yours
not quite me07 [5:30 PM]: well
T15WIT [5:31 PM]: because I can relate to force feeding
not quite me07 [5:31 PM]: i like mine too
T15WIT [5:31 PM]: my mom does it to me all the time
not quite me07 [5:31 PM]: but i like urs better
not quite me07 [5:31 PM]: lol
not quite me07 [5:31 PM]: why?
T15WIT [5:31 PM]: pssh, right lol
T15WIT [5:31 PM]: I'm never hungry or do I wish to eat
T15WIT [5:31 PM]: yet she goes ballistic and thinks I'm trying to starve myself
not quite me07 [5:31 PM]: hmmm
T15WIT [5:31 PM]: when all I really am, is just not hungry
not quite me07 [5:31 PM]: hmmm...
not quite me07 [5:31 PM]: i c
not quite me07 [5:32 PM]: and how does that make u feel
not quite me07 [5:32 PM]: ?
T15WIT [5:32 PM]: lol, Ms. Pshycologist




Yes, a day dream of mine, yes the boy happens to be Carson, but if I ever tell him I have weird images like that sometimes he'd certainly freak out and be like "Tor', I love you, and I don't want sex, I just want to be with you and I love you and please don't see me as that..etc." And I know it's true, I don't portray him as that, I love him too much to ever see him as the antichrist or anything odd, but every "evil male stereotype" i've ever known of the male species sometimes always in my dreams happens through him, I love him though I don't see him as that.

KoRnEcHiK: i hate nvrmnds
KoRnEcHiK: tho i say it all the time
T15WIT: Heh, sorry, I tend to say it too much
KoRnEcHiK: yea
T15WIT: But still
T15WIT: She'll get him if you don't say anything, and that isn't how it's supposed to end
T15WIT: OR you could tell him, and he could be the wrong guy, etc.
KoRnEcHiK: everyone...nvrmnd
T15WIT: so many possibiltys
T15WIT: Do say, I spout off what I say, you go ahead
KoRnEcHiK: i kno
T15WIT: I dunno know
KoRnEcHiK: everyone says that i deserve him and all, but does he deserve me? hes better than this. not to mention ive been hearing a lot that
T15WIT: I shouldn't put my two bits in it
KoRnEcHiK: that well im a great person
KoRnEcHiK: i dont believe all i hear
T15WIT: well you are
KoRnEcHiK: i want yer 2 bits
T15WIT: And I have to say, ya never know till ya try Valerie
KoRnEcHiK: i dont want him to like
KoRnEcHiK: to like not do wut i hope for
KoRnEcHiK: ya
T15WIT: and rejection might sear for the first few minutes, but it passes, trust me, it does
KoRnEcHiK: kno?
KoRnEcHiK: i wouldnt naturally mind rejection...ive had it b4, but with him i couldnt take it
T15WIT: But I don't think I should say because, I've done the same thing you've done *not tell a boy* so many times and I guess I feel like I'm pressing my mistakes onto you, oops, sorry
KoRnEcHiK: no yer not
KoRnEcHiK: i kno everyone is tryin to help
KoRnEcHiK: god knows ive heard the good luck salute 20 million times
T15WIT: It's just..so many right opportunities wasted, and I don't want it to happen again, to me or anyone else
T15WIT: Hehehe
KoRnEcHiK: i kno wut yer sayin
T15WIT: but *cough* yea, you should tell him...
T15WIT: *runs away*
KoRnEcHiK: i am goin to
KoRnEcHiK: mary will not hurt him
KoRnEcHiK: or me
KoRnEcHiK: or ne1
KoRnEcHiK: i care bout
KoRnEcHiK: and not just bout mary
KoRnEcHiK: this is 4 me
KoRnEcHiK: i need to do it to get over certain things
KoRnEcHiK: fears and blackages and stuff
KoRnEcHiK: blockages*
KoRnEcHiK: stop running
KoRnEcHiK: lol
KoRnEcHiK: ok
T15WIT: Lol, Sorry, I run away, a problem of mine
T15WIT: Anywho
T15WIT: I know, Mary might have a few emotions for him, but you, you just have so much for him and I dunno, it just seems like the right way something should be
T15WIT: and of course, we haven't even mentioned his emotions in the whole ordeal, but I mean, he doesn't know, so that's um...nvm
KoRnEcHiK: well
KoRnEcHiK: i think he knows
KoRnEcHiK: but
KoRnEcHiK: i dunno
T15WIT: Does he?
KoRnEcHiK: if im not what he wants..if he truly wants mary
KoRnEcHiK: ill let him have her
T15WIT: Well, if he does hmm, no one has mentioned his emotions in it
T15WIT: I know exactly how you feel
T15WIT: You just kinda want him happy, even if it is without you
T15WIT: and that is true love
KoRnEcHiK: he can have wutever he wants and ill try my best to give it to him no matter wut it is
KoRnEcHiK: wowness
T15WIT: Exactly.
T15WIT: "gurl, u got it bad :p"
KoRnEcHiK: lol
T15WIT: lol, am I like a hippie? I'm gettin all weird like and philosophical, ack
KoRnEcHiK: no
KoRnEcHiK: yer not
T15WIT: lol, good okay
KoRnEcHiK: unless
KoRnEcHiK: u wanna be
T15WIT: Um, I don't know what I want to be
KoRnEcHiK: i used to kno
T15WIT: I don't think I'll ever know what I want and who I am, and that's the fun in my life
KoRnEcHiK: wut i wanted to be
KoRnEcHiK: not u
KoRnEcHiK: o
KoRnEcHiK: yea i spose
T15WIT: What did you want to be?
KoRnEcHiK: math teacher/college profes
KoRnEcHiK: then gilbert happened
KoRnEcHiK: he ruined math 4 me
T15WIT: Lol, really now?
KoRnEcHiK: yea
T15WIT: Don't let one thing stop you, because a lot of things will try to stop you....
T15WIT: Ack, why do I always end up sounding like a freakin PE teacher?!
KoRnEcHiK: lol
KoRnEcHiK: yer ok
T15WIT: So are you
T15WIT: lol


I always seem to end up in conversations dealing with love and such idealistic things, and I always feel weird after them, I'm so stupid, I shouldn't be spouting off such stupid beliefs, but I still think Valerie should tell Brandon she loves him before Mary gets to him.