Well, I have to leave in a half hour, and I was thinking about what I said last nite with my conversation with Carson. I won't leave, I know I love him and everything, there's nothing to deny there. The summer leaves something to think about, I don't know what we will do because we won't have a schedule to follow (aka every weekend) I doubt...yeah, I do actually, I should stop being like this. I love him, has anything gone wrong yet? No. So why should I even bother messing with it? Well, maybe some things have gone wrong, no, nothing went wrong, there's always been a dark cloud overhead...Oh fuck it, I'll mess with it later, whether it's me wanting him physically or what all I know is I want him, sadly right now. but eh, what can you do? Absolutely nothing, and I'll always have this looming shadow near me, and an loneliness surround me whenever he's not around.