Okay, I'm better, I was a total moron and actually told Carson what I did *smacks head* sheesh, that was wrong he got all worried like I was going to kill myself, nah I've tried, I reassured him that since I have people who love me that I'll stay around, and I'll probably always have someone love me so it's okay, but god I need to see a shriek, I hate myself. I really honestly hate myself. And I guess that's a problem I need to fix later, but for now maybe an end to the person telling me all my faults for the nite will make me feel better...

And it isn't like this is the first time I've done it, oh no, I did it in the third grade, I have notebooks with words scribbled, Tory is a big fat dumb stupid head, of course as you can see my language rose to higher negative terms, but right *cough* bed, I'm going to it soon, goodnite