Complainin'

My relationship with Carson has gotten a bit...boorish. Well, I mean, I'm not gonna leave him or anything, but I just feel so..old. I feel like an old decrepit person whenever I'm around him, I don't mind I mean, Aren't I supposed to be young, naieve stupid? Yet I feel like I'm smarter than my age group, *although I may just be conceited*, I mean, I would go to Teen Nite, but..everyone is stupid, sure I like to dance, sure I would love to go dancing, but not with a buncha idiots, just not my cup of tea. I don't know where I fit in the grand scheme of it all..I feel out of place, even Spike pointed out that I am so cool with all my college friends and he was mocking me, but I have no college friends and I feel like I have no highschool friends either..oh who am I kidding? I have tons of friends, true, none of them really fit me. I mean, all of my friends, each and every single one of them, I can relate to partly, there is no one out there that I can relate to as a whole, I'm not a person who is into one main thing, I'm just not. I can relate to a biker to a classical pianist to a person who surfs the net to a physicist, yet, none of them, I dunno, I just never have met a person who could relate to everything I've done, I used to think my parents could, but then I started getting social, and they're not uh, how should I say this "hip to the new groove" they're awesome people, and true, they strive to like new music, but..they just don't get it, I love 'em though. But still, I just feel empty. I guess I should quit my bitching and except my life and enjoy it, but, meh I just wish I could meet someone who knew what I knew, it would make life all the more fun.