ImABadAstronaut7: im really sorry
ImABadAstronaut7: my computer is being really really odd
ImABadAstronaut7: but please tell me whats up
T15WIT: I'm sorry about the delay, I was trying to get some tissues
ImABadAstronaut7: its allright
T15WIT: I just, I just ruined my relationship for six months
T15WIT: Here:
T15WIT: Dear Carson True,

I know you don't want to hear me talk. I'm crying right now as I type. I was laying there in bed, and I just started sobbing, "My God, what have I just done?" I know that I just ruined my relationship with you over my fucking indecisiveness. Oh god, I did it all wrong, I did. As I sit here typing this, I can see you look at it with disgust. I just saw you on, and I came back, and you weren't there.


I love you.
T15WIT: I just really love this guy.
T15WIT: And I just ruined it, he probably hates me now
T15WIT: I just screwed it up.
T15WIT: And it's all my fucking fault.
ImABadAstronaut7: what did you do?
T15WIT: It started when I stated that my life was getting too routine
T15WIT: Because it felt like it was
ImABadAstronaut7: allright
T15WIT: and then he just tried to comfort me
T15WIT: He offered to shake it up, like, maybe we could run away from it all, but then I was saying how I had to take care of things here
T15WIT: and then he was like, "So, you claim you want an adventure, yet you don't want one?"
T15WIT: *which was true, I really wanted one*
T15WIT: and then it ended with both of us saying "I just don't know anymore"
T15WIT: and then we left.
T15WIT: In other words, I messed it up, big time.
ImABadAstronaut7: arnt you two dating anymore?
T15WIT: We've been dating since November
T15WIT: The 7th of November, our last date was Saturday where we saw Van Helsing
ImABadAstronaut7: no i mean did you two break up tonight
T15WIT: I don't know.
T15WIT: It wasn't official
T15WIT: We just...left
T15WIT: I just don't feel like the same person he used to know
T15WIT: I don't think he ever knew me..
ImABadAstronaut7: you probably arnt
ImABadAstronaut7: and he might not have
T15WIT: But I still care about him
ImABadAstronaut7: i dont really know you well
T15WIT: and that what gets me
T15WIT: No one seems to
T15WIT: Not even my family
ImABadAstronaut7: your interresting
T15WIT: but that's not the problem at hand
ImABadAstronaut7: its not your right
ImABadAstronaut7: the real problem at hand is?
T15WIT: The problem at hand is I pointed out I was a walking paradox, and I just lost someone I love.
ImABadAstronaut7: you didnt lose anyone
ImABadAstronaut7: you keep saying that
T15WIT: I think I did.
T15WIT: He was someone to me.
ImABadAstronaut7: but unless he said "its ova babe" then dont count on anything
ImABadAstronaut7: work it out
ImABadAstronaut7: get together with him
T15WIT: No, just because he didn't say it doesn't mean, in his mind he didn't mean it
T15WIT: *sigh*
ImABadAstronaut7: your assuming things
T15WIT: No, I could tell, I think
ImABadAstronaut7: your jumping to hastey conclusions
T15WIT: He just had an air about him, I mean,
T15WIT: Maybe you're right
T15WIT: I'll see him in the morning..
T15WIT: well..
T15WIT: I'm afraid now
ImABadAstronaut7: i had a little saying "when you assume you make an ass out of u and me" so dont think that something is up
ImABadAstronaut7: youll make both of you sick
T15WIT: because what if he claims it's over tomorrow? oh god, I wish he doesn't
ImABadAstronaut7: if he does move on
ImABadAstronaut7: good golly i did
T15WIT: it hurts to do so
T15WIT: yes, but for six months?
T15WIT: Six months of showing your secrets and fears, and being comforted by this person who cared?
ImABadAstronaut7: i dated her for two years
T15WIT: Did you see her day in day out
T15WIT: ?
ImABadAstronaut7: no but i tried
T15WIT: yeah..
T15WIT: btw
T15WIT: I like your little thing about assume
ImABadAstronaut7: "distance is to love what wind is to fire_ it extinguishes the small and enkindles the great"
T15WIT: "Close proximity breeds intimacy"
T15WIT: I dunno..just felt like following up with some other quote.
T15WIT: Thanks Ry
T15WIT: an
T15WIT: I feel better
ImABadAstronaut7: just because you see someone day in and day out deosnt mean that the love is greater than someone who doenst get that chance
ImABadAstronaut7: and if for some reason he decides to end it
ImABadAstronaut7: then your a great person
ImABadAstronaut7: and you will move on and find someone better
T15WIT: Thank you Ryan
T15WIT: Thank you so much
ImABadAstronaut7: if he cant realize what hes got then hes not worth the time
ImABadAstronaut7: that is my metaphorical ten cents
T15WIT: Okay, thank you so much ryan
ImABadAstronaut7: no problem
ImABadAstronaut7: what are friends for eh?
T15WIT: Heh, really
T15WIT: ::hug::
T15WIT: thanks man, you're always there
T15WIT: and If ya ever need me, just gimme an IM
ImABadAstronaut7: no problemo


Okay, I resolved it, I'll just talk with him tomorrow and ask if he hates me or not.