Mr. True, what will I do with you?



Ah, I finished my math homework except for the graphing I'll wake up early for that, but whilst doing the equations and such I couldn't help think about Carson I love him. At one point I found that I had drifted away from my textbook and was sitting on my bed holding a pillow, och, gotta stop that. then I lay on my bed looking at the ceiling thinking of thoughts, one thing that got me was this subconscious thing I never gave thought too, I know that I've told Carson before "You know, it's okay if you want to leave." When I say that, I don't really want him to leave. I just don't want to see him to feel guilty or something if he ever stopped having any emotions for me. I mean, that's one reason why I hesitate to tell him I love him. I just don't want to see him hurt, even in the oddest sense. I just want to see him happy. I'd give up my own emotions, just to see him happy. Meh, maybe I just need some rest. I know this will hurt in the end but I just have to say it.

Carson True, I love you.