who are you? who am I?

I go online and AIM to talk to people, only to not talk to them because of some reason

people think I'm busy.
I'm not.

I'm doing absolutely nothing when I should be doing homework or something.

I feel miserable.

I have tons of homework that I should get done, but I want to talk, but when I go on to talk, I don't because of my shy nature, or I forget how to talk to someone.

I love Carson still. Even if he doesn't recognize it or know it

I still consider everyone a friend, even if they don't see it..

Why can't I show it I wonder sometimes..why am I shy in front of large crowds, yet I can be so talkative when near one person singularly..

I lie all the time.

I say how I'll go outside and leave buddy chat or w/e, only to really go outside, for 2 seconds, realize its raining, come inside and do stuff that is of no importance, I'm failing all of my classes, my room is a pigsty, I'm not keeping proper health care of myself, and I feel miserable.

I need a break.

badly.

and it's the weekend, ironic.

Meh, I guess I'll go try to do homework, which I'll procrastinate with trying to talk to people, to which I'll procrastinate by switching a launch yahoo song, which I'll procrastinate with homework.

great.

*sigh*

bye.