What a feeling in my soul...

- "Brighter than sunshine" Aqualung

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Christmas party at P&M tonite. Dirty danced with Julien. Turned down a few vodka cranberry drinksis from the bartender. Feel slightly sick and reek of cigarette smoke.

I had a nice time.

Ben got sick today. Really bad, I'm not sure how he pulled it off, be he drove him and I over to his place before he crashed into his driveway. We got inside and were instantly greeted with Moxie and Jesse, of course I let the girls lick me to death while Benny boy went to the bathroom, then I searched the cupboards for any kind of campbell's I could find, which I discovered in the back some alphabet. he had about 2 sips of it before laying on the couch. Poor son of a gun, mom came and picked me up and yelled at me and how my coat was covered with dog hair, to which I was later masking taped down.

And while all this was happening, taking care of a sick brother, screaming at my sister about if she sings mr. hanky the christmas poo one more freakin time, helping baptize a baby, coming up with a new screenplay idea, crying at my father shouting how I don't trust him, Brian setzer music, and dirty dancing with a gay man, I still thought of him. And how I think I'd rather be in a parking lot, or on a beach, or in a stopped car in NC, or sipping coffee...

I'm freezing, I'm off on a quest to find a heating pad or blanket, my yellow comforter has dissapeared thanks to some sibling prankster I assume, well away I go..

adieu