Frog in Throat / Thanks Dad.

Dad: Hey Tory! Just checking for the 2943rd time about your incompetence with gas stoves. But I looove you.
Me: *sigh* thanks
D: Hey, you don't sound like you're doing too well, *tries to think of ways to cheer up da Tory* Hmm, BY THE WAY! I forgot! How did your brunch last Sunday with Sarah go?
M: She cancelled dad, for a wedding...
D: Oh, well, has she called you back to reschedul..
M: No.
D: Oh....so you like, have no friends at all up there?
M: No dad.
D: Oh, um so I guess you're lonel..
M: *holding back tears* just a little
D: Well I gue..
M: Dad, I'm gonna go *blatantly lies* I think that's a casting director on the other line
D: Oh! Well good lu

*hangs up*

*looks at wall*

*picks up phone again*

Uncle Chris in Conneticut: Hello?
Me: Um..hello? Is this Chris?
U: Yeah..
M: *sounding extremely lonely and depraved* Uh yeah Hi Uncle Chris! It's me, Tory
U: oh yeah! hi!
M: Yeah I was just wondering, what are you guys doing for the fourth of july?
U: Oh well we were going to your Uncle Bill and Aunt Sandi's home to celebrate Jill's birthday/the fourth of july
M: Oh um well...can I come?
U: erm
M: I mean, not to be
U: Yeah, I'm sure you can, but lemme put you on the line with your aunt , she's the one to talk to about making plans
M: Oh yeah thanks
H: Hey Tory,
M: Hey! I think I am going to check up on the bus and train schedules into Hartford, and then I'll call you back, okay?
H: Oh okay, well, you can come by any time you want Tory.
M: Thanks.
*hangs up*

*stares at wall*

I think I'm gonna watch the fireworks at Central Park alone.

I get campin eyes in the final hour last minute shoppers pickin cauliflower they fuss they make swear they were drivin a car they always moan moanin's not so cheap cheaper still cheaper still down the street


ragglefraggle boil and turn, i'm sorry.

Dad: So, how you holding up money wise?
Me: Well, you know, I just took the money I had and counted the rest of the days I had and found out that I only had 8 dollars a day to live off of and
Dad: whoa whoa whoa! Kid! You're not cinderella, Tory, I planned on giving you like another six hundred
Me: ...what?
Dad: Yeah!


Wait wait wait, how much in debt am I going to be to this guy? the apartment basically cost three grand what with a 500 security deposit. and you gave me 600, so I figured that's three 1200's I can work on that, but another six hundred, head aches a comin'

What? are you giving me this like you did half of that car so you won't worry about me in college? Is that it? Or are you for some reason gonna TRY to pay for my college too? I'm so very confused.

I..just want to...act.

Spring Awakening

Okay, last time I mention it, I promise. Yeah...I kinda really do wanna see this production..


and yeah, Manhattan is vunda-vah.

Well, that was a rash decision. i hope it's worth it.

I'm tired. I come home from chasing around and keeping busy a three year old when I come home to a pissed off mom.

"why am I getting these bad vibes from you."

*silence*

"You have been with him, count 'em, two days straight. And you have not helped enough with your party."


so I'm here cleaning the upstairs and dusting. He's hurt so much. I've done it to him, no matter what he says about he did it to himself for believing it.

Do I know what I want?

cop out's suck.

and he thinks it will be a cop out but it won't. They won't pay for the NY trip unless I also stay in a dorm for a year, or if I live with him in Columbia they will disown me, they've told me this. She has, at least. She's upset. He's upset. I think my body is telling me I'm upset.

I'm gonna have a talk with them when dad and mom are both back here.


"It's kinda always been about you."