Friday, June 24, 2005

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The Goddess of Ice and Hope. You are a creative
wonder. Always calm and collected, you hold the
awe of many people and you are exceptionally
logical. You are an inspirational beauty.

Which gorgeous goddess are you? For girls! (breath taking pics!)
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Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.

What dark word represents you? (anime pics and 7 outcomes)
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Your
power is: Time Control


Explanation: You have the ability to
freeze, push forward or go back in time. In
good purposes it is used to prevent bad deeds,
and the opposite for evil purposes.
As a person your emotional level has been on
hold. For one reason or another emotions has
reduced and now you aren't so full of life. And
of course, this does not sadden you since you
could care less. Sometimes though you can be
hit by emotioal waves inside but you block it
all out. You don't search for something that
could make you happy since you have no hope in
that area any longer. People probably see you
as annoying because you're not involved and
just stand there. You probably don't have that
many friends either, and you feel like you are
with them because that's what you normally do.
You stick to your habits and don't appreciate
changes.
Negative aspects: One day all emotions
are gonna surface again, and that day will be
very painful. Instead it is more wise to start
up the emotional level bit by bit, so it won't
come as a big chock.



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Friday, June 17, 2005

Another day, another dead prostitute

Ah so I have been relaxing at drama camp this whole week, the girl (Tah-rah) that Jamie made out with is here, and I have to say she is AWESOME!!!!!!!!! She is. Totally. Great. I love Tara, anyway other than hanging out with her and donohonkie and the rest of the world, it's been a great week. I've missed jamie so much though. terribly.

But at least I got the week ahead!

Well, the summer ahead!

So, this summer...I will have a job..

and calculus work..

and driver's ed...

and english work...

and room rearranging..

and maine..

jebus.

And Jamie, and Leah and everyone and Kelsey ^_^

And julien

oh man

this is gonna be one busy/helluva summer..

I can't wait! :D

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

It's funny, the Jamie I took for a bore at Salsarita's was truly terrified that he would lose me or something, and he was too preoccupied with that to keep his mind on me...? something like that

Either way, I wonder if he is doing anything on Friday, I chatted with him last night and I smiled..alot...

Sly is a good guy...but no thanks

I just have a fear that Jamie was like "Fuck it!" today and made out with another girl or something

::sigh::

Guess I'll just have to wait for a phone call...

Monday, June 06, 2005

Lordie lordie I'm in a predicament if there ever was one..

Saturday, June 04, 2005

Something is Not Quite Right

Last evening, I went to Salsarita's with Jamie.

I have really no emotions for him.

We were sitting in Salsarita's and it was absolutely boring. It was only interesting when I went to Bi-lo by myself to buy some cowtails and ferror rochers' then when I went into the Living Room. And the living room only got interesting when Jamie and I were talking to each other via scrabble pieces. And even that got boorish so we moved onto asking each other trivial pursuit questions which got boorish but we did it anyway, and the man who was playing piano took a break and came over and I requested "Firefly" and he said he didn't know it..

I call her fire..
fire fly,
why can't i?
latch on to your know how?
oh how, i love ya but gee,
why ya set the night on fire..
fly..
shine a little light on me,

but when i get her there
set her there
do i get to pet her there?
and grab me some glow,
no she's a mad about
gadabout,
luring every lad about,
while leavin' me moaning low

anyway..
.
So he ended up playing it's only a paper moon, which is good, i like that too. I eventually got so bored with trivial pursuit, when it got to my time to ask a question i said, "Why do you want me?" because I was hoping for a "I don't know, I thought I did, but now I don't think I do." or something because he looked pretty well...off in lala world, anyway he just looked at me and smiled and was like astonished or something and said "because of moments like this when I'm left speechless" and then he hugged me, in public, and I felt weird because there was the piano man and some children...but I didn't say "Something is not quite right" Then later when we were walking out, he hugged me really hard, I hugged back this time, I don't know, I kissed him on the cheek and said "goodnite jamie" , then he asked me a question, I thought it was "Will you take me home?" and I said "yes." and he was like "great!" and then I feared that entire car ride it was a different question..

it was.

I got online and he basically said I agreed to taking him back.

Taking him back?

Yes, taking him back.

So, I've taken him back, but it isn't like I'm going to be attached.

Then what's the point of having him back?

I'm not sure, don't want to hurt his feelings?

I know he's going to be off making out with more girls, and I know his phone isn't working so there's really no means of communication with him. That's one reason why I'm not attached, because it's fucking impossible to be attached, there was a strand of hope that held it together, and well, I don't know, let's just say after that episode that little strand has been replaced with a strand of realization..

*sigh*

no, something is not quite right..