http://www.news.com.au/story/0,10117,15301898-17001,00.html


heehehehhee...

So right when I find out I am Jamie’s girlfriend..Nicholas appears

RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:29 P.M.]: Nice away message...Happy belated birfday, yo!Auto response from T15WIT [6:29 P.M.]: The world would be a better place if homework did not exist. T15WIT [6:30 P.M.]: heh, thanks T15WIT [6:30 P.M.]: ah, so mr. perrone T15WIT [6:30 P.M.]: how's life been treatin' you lately? RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:30 P.M.]: eh, okayRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:31 P.M.]: Finally put in my notice at BWWT15WIT [6:31 P.M.]: dit-toe T15WIT [6:31 P.M.]: oh? RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:31 P.M.]: so those bastards wont piss me off any moreT15WIT [6:31 P.M.]: got an app. for pat and mikes T15WIT [6:31 P.M.]: only to find out that they no longer need bussers, but they'll contact me as soon as they need one RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:31 P.M.]: [rejected]T15WIT [6:31 P.M.]: aka, i'll be searchin for other places, but i don't mind T15WIT [6:31 P.M.]: exactly. RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:32 P.M.]: ive been very antisocial latelyRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:32 P.M.]: completely avoiding communication with everyoneRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:32 P.M.]: even at workT15WIT [6:32 P.M.]: or at least me :p T15WIT [6:32 P.M.]: jp RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:32 P.M.]: dont think I said anyhting but "heard" or "order up"T15WIT [6:32 P.M.]: i hate birthdays T15WIT [6:32 P.M.]: i used to love them, but i hated this one RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:32 P.M.]: aw, why?T15WIT [6:33 P.M.]: because it wasn't on biker weekend, on biker weekend my dad's working, my mom's working my siblings are gone, and i'm home alone, and there's serenity, but this weekend my dad was shouting my mom was shouting, my siblings were crying it was awfully hectic T15WIT [6:33 P.M.]: oh well, they gave me phantom of the opera on dvd, a nice b-day gift, so it's all good i guess RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:33 P.M.]: haha niceRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:34 P.M.]: sorry I never got back to you about the sunday beach thingRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:34 P.M.]: they doubled up my hours since i out i my noticeRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:34 P.M.]: errRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:34 P.M.]: put in*RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:34 P.M.]: and I never heard back from julienT15WIT [6:34 P.M.]: it's okay, julien told me he wasn't going, and then i asked him later that day if he wanted to go somewhere (aka get me outta this house) but he told me he was already at the beach....losuh T15WIT [6:34 P.M.]: oh well T15WIT [6:34 P.M.]: Yeah, RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:35 P.M.]: lolRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:35 P.M.]: he just went by himself?T15WIT [6:35 P.M.]: nah with friends of his and family RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:35 P.M.]: damnT15WIT [6:35 P.M.]: heh RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:35 P.M.]: he rejected yo assT15WIT [6:35 P.M.]: reeeejected RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:36 P.M.]: damn fagT15WIT [6:36 P.M.]: it was all good, i needed sleep because i didn't get home till 2 am on sat. night T15WIT [6:36 P.M.]: lol, really T15WIT [6:36 P.M.]: although, i love his messages RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:36 P.M.]: 2am?T15WIT [6:36 P.M.]: "Hey woman, i'm off work, let's do something" T15WIT [6:36 P.M.]: yup, prom with mrytle beach kids T15WIT [6:36 P.M.]: ended up with a waffle house RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:36 P.M.]: ohhhh yeah how did that goT15WIT [6:36 P.M.]: and an odd breakfast T15WIT [6:36 P.M.]: heh, interesting T15WIT [6:37 P.M.]: i danced like a muthafucka cuz i didn't know anyone there so i didn't have to worry about embarrassment T15WIT [6:37 P.M.]: also, i acted like i didn't speak french "Que? No anglai monsieur." T15WIT [6:37 P.M.]: or w/e T15WIT [6:37 P.M.]: i mean didn't speak english T15WIT [6:37 P.M.]: and spoke french.. T15WIT [6:37 P.M.]: whatever RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:38 P.M.]: lolT15WIT [6:38 P.M.]: why have you been so antisocial? RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:38 P.M.]: at least you didnt go as a fuckin mimeT15WIT [6:38 P.M.]: or is it for the same reason why i've been in an off mood? T15WIT [6:38 P.M.]: heh, true true RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:38 P.M.]: *slaps ben*T15WIT [6:39 P.M.]: but i did end up chasing a frog T15WIT [6:39 P.M.]: oh god, he deserves it RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:39 P.M.]: well first off, it's these FUCKING BIKERS WHO WONT STFU AND ARE CRANKING THEIR BIKES AS I TYPET15WIT [6:39 P.M.]: I had to stand outside while he's making out with katie...fucking nasty ass RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:39 P.M.]: ewwwT15WIT [6:39 P.M.]: hey now! those bikers are paying for my online time in the end of it all T15WIT [6:39 P.M.]: I know.. T15WIT [6:39 P.M.]: and my batteries to my CD player died T15WIT [6:40 P.M.]: so I sat outside with headphones on, pretending not to hear the slurping...icky RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:40 P.M.]: i hope those fuckers all get in a wreck and break their necksRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:40 P.M.]: loudass country music playing cocksuckersT15WIT [6:40 P.M.]: ew fuck, no those bikers aren't paying for me f that RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:40 P.M.]: aw, I'm sorryT15WIT [6:40 P.M.]: lol it's okay T15WIT [6:40 P.M.]: kinda used to those two now RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:40 P.M.]: lolT15WIT [6:41 P.M.]: I have biker friends T15WIT [6:41 P.M.]: well...they're 60... T15WIT [6:41 P.M.]: but they're awesome RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:41 P.M.]: nice...RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:41 P.M.]: I fully intend to buy a bike as soon as I have the money for itT15WIT [6:41 P.M.]: yes, they're like the grandparents i never had T15WIT [6:41 P.M.]: I was considering buying a bike but then I thought "what happens when it rains?" T15WIT [6:41 P.M.]: so i decided for next best thing, a convertible T15WIT [6:42 P.M.]: but a bike sounds pretty good sometimes RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:42 P.M.]: well, im sure i could find a bike somewhere for 8kRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:42 P.M.]: cant be that expensive, right?T15WIT [6:42 P.M.]: hah. T15WIT [6:43 P.M.]: depends how good the quality you want it to be T15WIT [6:43 P.M.]: some of those suckers run for at least 30 RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:44 P.M.]: if I ever get a non crotch rocket, it will look like thisRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:44 P.M.]: http://www.yamaha-motor.com/assets/products/mcy/general/media_content_unit0111596bb8.jpg T15WIT [6:44 P.M.]: sweet. RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:44 P.M.]: err wait, that is a crotch rocketT15WIT [6:44 P.M.]: hehehe RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:44 P.M.]: yeah, thatT15WIT [6:45 P.M.]: still is sexy RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:46 P.M.]: fuck, i dont care about APR, gimme the damn priceT15WIT [6:46 P.M.]: i'd suggest... T15WIT [6:46 P.M.]: h/o T15WIT [6:46 P.M.]: nah forget it RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:46 P.M.]: ?T15WIT [6:46 P.M.]: i was gonna go to this website that used to have prices of bikes T15WIT [6:46 P.M.]: but i lost it T15WIT [6:46 P.M.]: brb RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:47 P.M.]: http://www.xtremepowersports.com/Discount_Yamaha_Motorcycles_-_/discount_yamaha_motorcycles_-_.html RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:48 P.M.]: http://www.yamahaaccy.com/images/newvehicle/500/05_yzf600r_slv_3_3528.jpg RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:48 P.M.]: I can get that for 7kT15WIT [6:48 P.M.]: h/o i'm checking out one that had a photo T15WIT [6:48 P.M.]: oh man T15WIT [6:48 P.M.]: it looked sweet T15WIT [6:48 P.M.]: heh T15WIT [6:48 P.M.]: i could see you behind that too T15WIT [6:49 P.M.]: 05 Roadstar Midnite RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:49 P.M.]: I'd want black thoughT15WIT [6:49 P.M.]: i liked that one RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:49 P.M.]: http://www.yamahaaccy.com/newmodelsinfo.aspx?mid=18&yr=2005 RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:50 P.M.]: in stockRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:50 P.M.]: 10,175T15WIT [6:50 P.M.]: yeah T15WIT [6:50 P.M.]: oh well, i've been paying off for the mustang and i'm quite fond of red T15WIT [6:50 P.M.]: but never on a bike T15WIT [6:50 P.M.]: oh man T15WIT [6:50 P.M.]: one time T15WIT [6:50 P.M.]: i saw this lime green and black one RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:50 P.M.]: http://www.yamahaaccy.com/images/newvehicle/500/05_rdstrMid_blk_1_3528.jpg T15WIT [6:50 P.M.]: that one was pretty hot RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:50 P.M.]: yeahRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:50 P.M.]: i like that color comboRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:50 P.M.]: or black and redT15WIT [6:50 P.M.]: yeah T15WIT [6:51 P.M.]: or black and bright neon blue RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:51 P.M.]: I want a helmet that I can spray logos on myselfT15WIT [6:51 P.M.]: hey that sounds liek the colours in a chatroom RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:51 P.M.]: and maybe mount some horns on itT15WIT [6:51 P.M.]: *tries to hold back laughter* T15WIT [6:51 P.M.]: Nick! The viking! T15WIT [6:51 P.M.]: haahahhaa T15WIT [6:51 P.M.]: oh man RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:51 P.M.]: no seriously, that would rockT15WIT [6:51 P.M.]: that would be kci kass T15WIT [6:51 P.M.]: no T15WIT [6:51 P.M.]: well whatever RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:51 P.M.]: either those really tiny little pointsT15WIT [6:51 P.M.]: i saw you driving a bike in huge viking horns on the outside T15WIT [6:52 P.M.]: oh man! the guy in the old couple has a hat like that! RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:52 P.M.]: yeahRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:52 P.M.]: thats what I wantRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:52 P.M.]: on the helmT15WIT [6:53 P.M.]: my dad wanted a bike, my mom suggested water skis because if he fell he wouldn't hit concrete but would only hit water T15WIT [6:53 P.M.]: actually, my grandfather bought a bike when he found out he had cancer..thought he should've lived it up while he could RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:53 P.M.]: http://www.uk-motorcycle-accessories.co.uk/acatalog/r1656.jpg RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:53 P.M.]: ROFLRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:53 P.M.]: that one looks like shitT15WIT [6:53 P.M.]: omg T15WIT [6:54 P.M.]: somebody out there owns that too T15WIT [6:54 P.M.]: someone from EUROPE T15WIT [6:54 P.M.]: loser europeans RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:54 P.M.]: yeahRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:54 P.M.]: http://www.motorcyclebuzz.com/Images/Media/Motorcycle-Buzz/MediaCat42.jpg T15WIT [6:54 P.M.]: Nick, I do believe you need a motorcycle to go with yer leather jacket. RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:54 P.M.]: haha, that jacket is shitT15WIT [6:55 P.M.]: you can *cough* gimme your car.. *bambi eyes* T15WIT [6:55 P.M.]: I wear my mom's leather jacket, I own a black jean one that I adore, but leather feels better RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:55 P.M.]: why would I give you my car?T15WIT [6:55 P.M.]: because you would no longer need it when you have a bike? RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:55 P.M.]: you have a fucking mustangT15WIT [6:55 P.M.]: so? T15WIT [6:55 P.M.]: I can sell it. RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:55 P.M.]: greedy bastidT15WIT [6:56 P.M.]: bastid, is that the female form??? I never heard that T15WIT [6:56 P.M.]: cool T15WIT [6:56 P.M.]: i'm a bastid. T15WIT [6:56 P.M.]: bast-ahd T15WIT [6:56 P.M.]: that's you :) RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:56 P.M.]: The most important piece of motorcycle safety equipment that you can buy is a helmet. Every rider benefits from wearing a helmet, no matter how great or how little their level of experience. In order to choose a helmet that offers the most protection without sacrificing comfort or style, the National Highway Traffic Safety Administration offers some guidelines.RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:57 P.M.]: Make sure that your helmet meets the Department of Transportation's (DOT) Federal Motor Vehicle Safety Standard (FMVSS) 218. First, look for the DOT symbol on the outside back of the helmet. Then, look for a label inside the helmet stating the manufacturer's name, month and year of manufacture, construction materials, helmet model and size, and owner information. A complying helmet must have both labels.T15WIT [6:57 P.M.]: yup. helmets are pretty good. RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:57 P.M.]: Full-face helmets offer the most protection in a collision. Plastic face shields protect you from wind, dust, rain, insects, and road debris thrown up from cars. If you buy a helmet without a face shield, be sure to wear goggles to protect your eyes. Remember, a windshield is not an adequate substitute for a face shield or goggles. And neither are eyeglasses as they cannot keep your eyes from watering and are easily dislodged.T15WIT [6:58 P.M.]: Eh, I always liked the kinds that had radios in them T15WIT [6:58 P.M.]: I'd rather hear music than the wind blowing past my ears RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:58 P.M.]: A design such as the German Army style or skull cap style may be a clue to an unsafe helmet. Generally, unsafe helmets are noticeably smaller in diameter and thinner than ones meeting the DOT standard.T15WIT [6:58 P.M.]: heh RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:58 P.M.]: stupid nazisT15WIT [6:58 P.M.]: Nick, no chance with your helmet RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:59 P.M.]: Brightly colored helmets increase your visibility to other vehicles. Add reflective tape on the back and sides of the helmet for even greater visibility.RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:59 P.M.]: how about a pink helm?T15WIT [6:59 P.M.]: how about you just put a sign up saying "I'm gay!" RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [6:59 P.M.]: but I'm...notT15WIT [6:59 P.M.]: uh-huh T15WIT [6:59 P.M.]: pink helmet... RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [7:00 P.M.]: lolRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [7:01 P.M.]: my mom is making me go do errandsRaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [7:01 P.M.]: since her back hurtsT15WIT [7:01 P.M.]: my back hurts... RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [7:01 P.M.]: *sigh*T15WIT [7:01 P.M.]: well no it doesn't T15WIT [7:01 P.M.]: i'm sorry to hear that T15WIT [7:01 P.M.]: pick me up and make it more interesting, T15WIT [7:01 P.M.]: jp T15WIT [7:01 P.M.]: what errands? *Go pick up my weekly crack at teh whorehouse down mainstreet* RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [7:02 P.M.]: how did you know? *gasp*T15WIT [7:02 P.M.]: I work at the whore house on mainstreet ;) RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [7:02 P.M.]: wish I did have time to pick you up...hehe....but perhaps some other time = )RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [7:02 P.M.]: but I need to goT15WIT [7:02 P.M.]: http://www.news.com.au/story/0,10117,15301898-17001,00.html T15WIT [7:02 P.M.]: have fun, kiddo RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [7:03 P.M.]: I willT15WIT [7:03 P.M.]: hehe RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [7:03 P.M.]: loadsT15WIT [7:03 P.M.]: *rolls eyes* RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 [7:03 P.M.]: goodbye T15WIT [7:03 P.M.]: adieu RaBiDkOaLaBeAr32 signed off at 7:03 P.M.



How about I explain my love life? Does that work? Yes I shall.

I left Mr. True in March. More so he left me…

“Tory - you're a sociopath with ADD who will most likely become a successful and loathsome figure just like the father you hate, and you'll have a great life at the expense of the weaker persons around you. Just go to the Governor's School, get on with your life, and go away.”

Anyway..I just went away from him even though he wanted me back, I just left numbly…I really had a great time with Carson, but it was slowly fading..it really had. I did love him. He’s the only guy I have ever felt an emotion like that for…

But where am I now?

Let us skip the month of march and early april where I called James one time and I looked at the grey skies and in an odd way hated but enjoyed being alone.

Let us skip to end of April, where I was “hooked” up with a boy named Brandon. Brandon truly doesn’t matter, I kissed him yes, in a car goodbye on our one date, on the cheek. He scares me, he hovered near my friends and he never really talked…go figure…

Then I met Jamie.

canmewda [1:17 P.M.]: your life canmewda [1:17 P.M.]: had been livedcanmewda [1:17 P.M.]: but not completelyT15WIT [1:17 P.M.]: saw an old post that reminded me of something from your post canmewda [1:17 P.M.]: wahtT15WIT [1:17 P.M.]: yours: i've been talknig a lot lately to this girl naemd tory, she seems cool, really cool. however she is odd at times, i start to think that she may like me, and i know i could like her if she'd let me, but other times it seems like she almost pushes me away, it's confusing, oh well... T15WIT [1:17 P.M.]: mine: T15WIT [1:18 P.M.]: And then Sara pointed out on the bus that I push him away and hit him and stuff. Whoa, I'm abusive, hey now, I also remembering seeing in Carson's blogspot a loong time ago, how he thought I didn't want him, something to do with Chelsea making me hate him or something. Now thinking it over, whenever I liked a guy, a didn't actually treat them nicely, and I never confessed to anyone I liked them, till I told Carson. I've never been nice to a guy before, T15WIT [1:18 P.M.]: I might have punched them, or teased them, or even in the end win their money with poker and that's all, I mean hell in sixth grade, I liked a guy and I painted his nails pink when he messed with my room.*long story, don't ask* Hmm...I am rude to guys I like, I think I gotta change that canmewda [1:18 P.M.]: hehcanmewda [1:19 P.M.]: yescanmewda [1:19 P.M.]: so why are you satan to people you likeT15WIT [1:20 P.M.]: *shrugs* canmewda [1:20 P.M.]: hmmmmT15WIT [1:20 P.M.]: hellifiknow, i think it's a curse canmewda [1:20 P.M.]: well its part of the reason that i've come to like so it may not necessarily be a curseT15WIT [1:20 P.M.]: heh T15WIT [1:21 P.M.]: yay T15WIT [1:21 P.M.]: it works! canmewda [1:21 P.M.]: not that you are satan, but taht you can converse with me, trade witty quips and debate over thingscanmewda [1:22 P.M.]: i dont like people taht change their minds to agree and you and i can debate over things on a level not many people canT15WIT [1:22 P.M.]: and deep down long for hugs, yet still be able to push people away when the thing i want most is them T15WIT [1:22 P.M.]: i believe it's a curse canmewda [1:22 P.M.]: hmmmcanmewda [1:22 P.M.]: but you now oyu know mecanmewda [1:23 P.M.]: and i'm the guy taht will risk life and limb for that hug even if you push me awatcanmewda [1:23 P.M.]: *awayT15WIT [1:23 P.M.]: heh canmewda [1:23 P.M.]: i believe that is part of what makes me like youcanmewda [1:23 P.M.]: and also what makes you stand out as a person to meT15WIT [1:24 P.M.]: heh, i'm getting into two deep conversations canmewda [1:24 P.M.]: lolcanmewda [1:24 P.M.]: well i have to go real sooncanmewda [1:24 P.M.]: but i dont want to leaveT15WIT [1:24 P.M.]: alrighty T15WIT [1:24 P.M.]: It's your life, kiddo. T15WIT [1:24 P.M.]: You know T15WIT [1:24 P.M.]: I always say that T15WIT [1:25 P.M.]: I say "Do what you want to do, it's your life" T15WIT [1:25 P.M.]: and then I end up worrying the hell about those people in life canmewda [1:25 P.M.]: it may be my life but i always jsut want others ot be happyT15WIT [1:25 P.M.]: perhaps you're an actor too T15WIT [1:25 P.M.]: no, you defenitely aren't canmewda [1:25 P.M.]: i'm quite openT15WIT [1:26 P.M.]: i seem open T15WIT [1:26 P.M.]: i have characters that are open :) T15WIT [1:26 P.M.]: but in all truth, i'm just an actor, an enigmatic character to society that has trouble opening up to people T15WIT [1:26 P.M.]: which might be why i'm not good with being next to people T15WIT [1:26 P.M.]: hell, took a month to kiss a person in public canmewda [1:26 P.M.]: and once again i question whether or not i like you or the character i've come ot know you asT15WIT [1:27 P.M.]: that's me T15WIT [1:27 P.M.]: but i guess my word isn't good canmewda [1:27 P.M.]: nopecanmewda [1:27 P.M.]: you could be the charachter coveringT15WIT [1:27 P.M.]: because as i always say "It ain't lyin; tis acting." T15WIT [1:27 P.M.]: you gotta go canmewda [1:28 P.M.]: nopecanmewda [1:28 P.M.]: not yetcanmewda [1:28 P.M.]: i'll tell you whenT15WIT [1:28 P.M.]: okay T15WIT [1:28 P.M.]: hmm T15WIT [1:28 P.M.]: me= the girl who says jamie kinda french like T15WIT [1:28 P.M.]: jamie T15WIT [1:28 P.M.]: anyway canmewda [1:29 P.M.]: well if oyu are a charachter do me favor and keep it up if nothing else let me enjoy you for a while until i have to leaveT15WIT [1:29 P.M.]: heh, i shall promise to be myself canmewda [1:30 P.M.]: well whatever i like i want to continue to likeT15WIT [1:31 P.M.]: okay T15WIT [1:31 P.M.]: you know T15WIT [1:31 P.M.]: i like this song alot canmewda [1:31 P.M.]: way ot change the subjesctT15WIT [1:31 P.M.]: "Those were teh days my friend" Mary Hopkins canmewda [1:32 P.M.]: "giving up" silversteinT15WIT [1:32 P.M.]: is that not how you keep conversations burning? by a switch of a subject without pointing it out :p canmewda [1:32 P.M.]: you always seem ot change the subject whenever this is the topic of conversationT15WIT [1:32 P.M.]: I assume that I'm never myself.I just noticed the sentence above was chocked full of teen angst, please ignore it.*sigh* canmewda [1:33 P.M.]: so i like to pint it outT15WIT [1:33 P.M.]: another lj quote there T15WIT [1:33 P.M.]: so many connections canmewda [1:33 P.M.]: hehT15WIT [1:35 P.M.]: whoa T15WIT [1:35 P.M.]: mcarthur park canmewda [1:35 P.M.]: lolT15WIT [1:36 P.M.]: jamie T15WIT [1:37 P.M.]: how's life? T15WIT [1:37 P.M.]: still mediocre? canmewda [1:37 P.M.]: goodcanmewda [1:37 P.M.]: because i got to tlak to youT15WIT [1:37 P.M.]: good T15WIT [1:37 P.M.]: what are your and christine's plans after the play? canmewda [1:38 P.M.]: idk if we are gonigcanmewda [1:38 P.M.]: we are trying to fibd ridesT15WIT [1:38 P.M.]: are you guys? T15WIT [1:38 P.M.]: hahaha T15WIT [1:38 P.M.]: good luck canmewda [1:38 P.M.]: we're tryingcanmewda [1:38 P.M.]: if not know htat i'm wishing you good vibescanmewda [1:38 P.M.]: and that i <3 title="http://photobucket.com/albums/v407/canmewda/Jamie/?action=" current="102_0060.jpg" href="http://photobucket.com/albums/v407/canmewda/Jamie/?action=view&current=102_0060.jpg">http://photobucket.com/albums/v407/canmewda/Jamie/?action=view¤t=102_0060.jpg canmewda [1:41 P.M.]: i kept that smile pic for a reasonT15WIT [1:41 P.M.]: mine consists of this T15WIT [1:41 P.M.]: : T15WIT [1:41 P.M.]: ^_^ canmewda [1:42 P.M.]: hehT15WIT [1:42 P.M.]: it has a smaller affect but same message canmewda [1:42 P.M.]: heh'canmewda [1:42 P.M.]: i ahve to post pics of me blonde nowcanmewda [1:42 P.M.]: i love itT15WIT [1:42 P.M.]: heh T15WIT [1:42 P.M.]: maybe one day i'll see it canmewda [1:43 P.M.]: well next saturdayT15WIT [1:43 P.M.]: exactly canmewda [1:43 P.M.]: yesT15WIT [1:43 P.M.]: good T15WIT [1:43 P.M.]: *leaves randomly* T15WIT [1:43 P.M.]: <3 canmewda is away at 1:44 P.M. canmewda [1:43 P.M.]: lolAuto response from T15WIT [1:43 P.M.]: Oh I'm sorry I died. Please try to contact me with some chick named Sister Rose at a seance. Thank you. canmewda [1:43 P.M.]: finecanmewda [1:43 P.M.]: <3canmewda [1:44 P.M.]: i heart youcanmewda [1:44 P.M.]: a lotcanmewda [1:44 P.M.]: and now i'm, leavingcanmewda [1:44 P.M.]: and you will be in my thoughts


Now, he’s quite an interesting fellow. Quite. I met him on a date one time where he owed me a box of snowcaps, but instead he ended up getting his leg in a cast. It was a great time. (NLT pervs…) we chatted over the phone quite a lot…I’ll get back to him soon.

Saturday nite on May 7th I was at an after party. It was all good. In November of this school year I had a small crush on a boy named Nicholas, he was a senior and he was chasing after another girl at the time so I slightly gave up on him. When I broke up with Carson I went that weekend to prom where I had flirted with Nick beforehand, he ended up chasing another girl, so I truly ended my emotions for him for good. Well..

On that night he gave me and Julien a ride to Julien’s house (Julien=gay guy buddy bestest evuh) and Nick came to Julien’s house. We all sat on Julien’s couch/bed and Let’s say Nick was close to me…all of us ended up sleeping there for the night (nothing happened like sex, Nick and I…well we made out, okay?) True, yes. I made out with Nick, I really had a surge of emotions go through and he confessed to me how he had always liked me but he was too afraid to show it so he always went to torment his girl “friends”. (both the girls had boyfriends true, but I still think it was flirting, they both told me later that he did have a huge crush on me…but still well..) Nick told me how that was the best night ever. We ended up going on another date (other than seeing him at school and online and over the phone and flirting) and we were supposed to do something alone, but of course Julien needed a ride..soo we ended up feeding duckies at the park, it was really fun actually..

Cut back to Jamie.

I went to prom with Mr. Sessions on Saturday night, (now the whole time I was talking to Jamie I had also flirted with Nicholas) Anywho! I had prom with mr. sessions. Truly, I had not had a crush on Jamie. I loved being held by him from that one date before, but chatting with him and so forth, my emotions were twisted for him…I could not make out if we were friendly or something more? I really began to like Jamie, for unlike Nick I talked to Jamie every night and every night I grew to like him more and more and care about him..erm

So prom occurred, I had one hell of a night. I kissed him.

Let me make it clear, I am not a slut.

I kissed Jamie in the back of a car, I liked it a lot, I liked resting my head on his shoulder much more. I liked Saturday evening, oh I truly did.

So where am I now? Now I am at 7:36 on a Monday night Jamie had just chatted with me to let me know I’m his girlfriend now and Nick just had a conversation with me.

That emotion I felt for mr. true though…I don’t feel it anymore, I have not felt it since I think Febuary, but still I’d like to point out that I have not felt for anyone else other than him yet. But I believe it’s a gradual thing, because I did not feel that emotion for Carson at first either..no not until at least hmm December of wow two years ago?

I should mention James. I have mentioned James enough in my written diary, but I might as well. James is a boy. I used to dream of him, I stopped late april. I don’t think of him really anymore…no! I take it back I even thought of seeing him at the prom I thought of seeing him having him surprise me at the play, he runs through the back of my mind all the time, tis true. I cannot help it. He is a mystery, and he will always be. No, I never did anything to him you perverts. I just…talked to him. Yes I talked to him forever and that’s why he perhaps grabs my attention the most. Even though consciously I put him off, he’s always there..I do not even like him. He’s still in my cellphone, I’ve never spoken to him through my cell phone…he’s a total stranger…

Heh,

Stranger
Mr True
Snowcaps
And Vampire
can you guess who is who?