Where did it all go?
Lesson Learned today: Nehi Peach Soda tastes nothing like Peaches and is disgusting.
Also, I really love getting lost.
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Thursday, July 13, 2006
My oh my you know it just don't stop
We're on the street in a beat up '89 chevy blazer that barely goes over 55 mph; Brittany is behind us on her bicycle. He reaches over to hold or hug me, but I push him away. "No James, not in front of Brittany" I could not do it. I hate hurting people because we both know that Britain wants him to like her like he does me. They live together, so it makes matters worse. He used to like her like that too, but he pushes her away now and goes for me. I can't take it. I can't hurt her, that is doing exactly that. And I know like Kris told me at Desperado's after the remains of my massive cheesecake that if I did leave, it would make matters worse because then james would be unhappy and then brit would be unhappy, so might as well stay and only have one....and and my emotions for him are strong, so then i know even i would be unhappy. it was only last nite and I already miss him. But it tears me for I do care about Britain, and her unhappy makes me sad too, she's my friend. She's james' friend. but she wants more.
He fell asleep in the back of the blazer, I gripped tightly on his few fingers he had and unconsciously made heart motions on his thumb while I stared at the moon and Brit drove me home. No, Dayne's home. where I put on a happy face and played Risk and made his little brother laugh and didn't get home till 1 AM. that is where i conked out on my bed.
I still smell like the ocean, even though I took a shower first thing when I woke up.
I have a plan. For Saturday. In my mind I see it, and I know it won't play out this way but Saturday he'll drive down to my home by 6, I'm taking him to the Indo Chine in Wilmington, I have about 45 dollars that say I can do it, and then back home I guess, not sure. I already have it planned I know, five second plans that never work out right are my expertise. adieu adieu
He fell asleep in the back of the blazer, I gripped tightly on his few fingers he had and unconsciously made heart motions on his thumb while I stared at the moon and Brit drove me home. No, Dayne's home. where I put on a happy face and played Risk and made his little brother laugh and didn't get home till 1 AM. that is where i conked out on my bed.
I still smell like the ocean, even though I took a shower first thing when I woke up.
I have a plan. For Saturday. In my mind I see it, and I know it won't play out this way but Saturday he'll drive down to my home by 6, I'm taking him to the Indo Chine in Wilmington, I have about 45 dollars that say I can do it, and then back home I guess, not sure. I already have it planned I know, five second plans that never work out right are my expertise. adieu adieu
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