I was in love once, you know.

Saturday evening, this haunting nightmare will finally cease.
*gulps* Somebody out there wish me luck.

She Runs Away.

Gah!

Why must I do this to myself? Why do I always run away? I always fall for someone secretly, and once I gain enough courage to speak to them and let them know, I instantly run away! This has occured from the playground with Ben, to Carson and getting "disconnected" to Jamie and just hanging up, and now..ick! How horrible of me! I always make a situation more awkward than I should. It should be like this:

"Hey you. I like you. alot. let's go somewhere and make hot love."
"okay."

Instead it ends up more like this:

"Hey...erm hi..."

*long conversation*

"Well yes anyway I agree with you on that and yes, I like you...alot...*blushes* *runs away*"
"..."

How horrible of me, how horrible *shakes head*

Yes yes, I shall call back and say "Terribly sorry, I lied, I do not like you in any way, I suggest you go off with a pretty girl who is comical and would like you! Adieu!"

A Nightmare, or a Warning?

*shivers*

What a horrible nightmare.

I saw myself being kidnapped, and no one knew where to go. I mean they noticed, but no one knew where to look for when I was hidden right under their noses, and I had never delved into this sneaking feeling that it could occur.

Carson.

I moved late January really, but I let it slide till Valentines day.

I left Jamie last nite; (of course Carson's single now too) here is a post from Carson's journal:

I have a secret plot to restore l'amour de la reine. It involves duct tape and two years of waiting until all emotives have sunken.
~

It's probably a joke, of course it is, I think...well either way, it sure didn't help curb my dreams theme...

Now I just feel like I gotta hook up with someone just so my crazy ass ex won't do something weird..

glargh.